♥ Saturday, November 08, 2008
Hey guys, I've relocated to http://www.binaryface.wordpress.com but you can still tag at this blog's tagboard. Have a nice day, everyone.
Listened to music @ 10:10 PM
♥ Friday, November 07, 2008
"I've never actually understood
And I've been pretending to understand everything"
Fly high - ayumi hamasaki
"From the moment these feelings overflowed
Before our fingers ever touched
I became aware of this love"
GREEN - ayumi hamasaki
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Today's Lit paper is SO FUN! I love doing Lit omg, I just poured all my emotions onto my essays... omg!
I love my answer for Section A! First time I wrote 4 sides (2 pieces of paper)... omg! And I really like what I wrote lah... I LOVE LIT!
The night spent studying on Lit was soooooo worth it! It feels good to actually KNOW quotes and putting them down on the answers... lmao.
Ah, last paper on Tuesday! Science MCQ! After that, O' Levels are finally over and whatever... just do stuff throughout the next few months and hopefully get good results so that I get into SAJC... I want to major in Lit!
Anyway, I really like penguins! They are my favorite animals after cats... penguins are so cute! You know the movie Madagascar? The penguins in there are SO adorable! I feel like pinching them and hugging them all day long!!!
Omg, just so cute!
And you know their leader, Skipper, the penguin at the front... he says this SUPER FUNNY line in the movie...
Like when they landed on Madagascar, and the hippo asked, 'Where are all the people?'
Then Skipper was like 'We killed them and ate their liver.'
Then the hippo was all O.O
And Skipper said, 'Gotcha there, didn't I?'
HILARIOUS!
And OMG another adorable penguin!
Hahaha I feel so happy now...
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"It's all right for us to sometimes think
That we live to be happy
Someday, isn't it?
Even though we have come to know
All the things reflected in our eyes are not beautiful"
immature - ayumi hamasaki
"At the moment the wind changes
Before I can see my loved one
I wonder if I should say how I feel"
GREEN - ayumi hamasaki
Listened to music @ 8:56 PM
♥ Thursday, November 06, 2008
"We are Beautiful Fighters
To be honest
There were some terrible days
But the girls who live
Without stopping nor giving up are
Beautiful Fighters
The unhealed wounds
Sometimes open
But shut again in time"
Beautiful Fighters - ayumi hamasaki
"From the moment these feelings overflowed
Before our fingers ever touched
I became aware of this love"
GREEN - ayumi hamasaki
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You are going on your own way, and so am I. And fighting against this parting of directions is just addition to my agony...
Anyways, today's Geog Paper 2 can be summed up in one word - EASY!
I can't be believe how easy the paper was! The two questions I did were ALL about describing trends on graphs... so easy! But the level marking questions... heh, screwed. But I'm still happy. Happy that the paper is still easy. Happy that tomorrow is Lit. Happy that O' Levels are gonna be Over soon.
Tomorrow's Lit... FULLY PREPARED! In the past, I never ever studied for my lit before, and that's why I always get 14-15/25 for my Seen section... because I don't put in quotes. Now, I finally have quotes, should be able to get A1 for seen! And as for unseen... time management is key. Somehow, I never finished my unseen poem before.... resulting 15/17-ish/25... I need to get A1 too. As high as possible! To make up for the Trauma that SS caused!!!
I feel so happy now omg!!!
For a better tomorrow!
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"There is no answer
No matter where you search for it
But you will never have
This moment again in your life
If you have decided to believe in yourself
Accept the answer
Even if it's different from your ideal"
Startin' - ayumi hamasaki
"At the moment the wind changes
Before I can see my loved one
I wonder if I should say how I feel"
GREEN - ayumi hamasaki
Listened to music @ 10:07 PM
♥ Wednesday, November 05, 2008
"The gestures you casually show me
In our idle conversations
Even if I don't intend to remember
Some part within me
Wow wow oh no no no no
Remembers them well
YOU and ME"
STEP you - ayumi hamasaki
"From the moment these feelings overflowed
Before our fingers ever touched
I became aware of this love"
GREEN - ayumi hamasaki
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There are a lot of things that I don't understand, but I'll try to; I'll force myself to. Some things are not easily explained by a simple explanation, nor can I always look at a matter at its most positive result.
Perhaps I could be in the past, but not anymore.
I don't understand why you still block me.
I don't understand why you hate me so much.
I don't understand this.
I don't understand that.
But I'll try to. I'm going to force myself to understand. Even if at the end of the day, I still don't understand, at least I can pretend that I do understand.
It's tiring to always feel sad and depressed, it really is... I'll just try to be happier. Even if at a moment, I feel upset, I should pretend to feel happy. I don't know why I have to do this, but it doesn't matter, does it?
As long as you think that I'm happy and going on well and fine without you, then it's okay. I mean I guess you wouldn't bother if I'm dead or alive, but at least I try to display myself in front of everyone as being able to move on.
I know myself well, so I'm sure something will change one of these days.
You know, before I slept yesterday night, while lying on my bed, I was just reminiscing. I'm kind of taken aback by how many scenes were replaying in my memories... It's just, I really don't understand, but I have to.
No matter how many, "Why?"s I have in me... I can only bury them, and continue walking.
Take it that I don't care, or that I want to escape from reality... I just have this huge juxtaposition in my mind right now.
Run... run... run.
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Today was HCL! Nothing to say except the paper is super easy. kthxbai. I'm worried for human geog tomorrow. My human geog always sucks more than my physical one...
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"I can't think it's someone else's problem
Though we understand in our minds
We repeat the same mistakes
In other words, we are always blind"
Ladies Night - ayumi hamasaki
"At the moment the wind changes
Before I can see my loved one
I wonder if I should say how I feel"
GREEN - ayumi hamasaki
Listened to music @ 9:07 PM
♥ Monday, November 03, 2008
"Even in the middle of such a gray city
Where you can hardly hold yourself together
Don't laugh so weakly
With a resigned look
As if to say 'Such is life'"
About You - ayumi hamasaki
"From the moment these feelings overflowed
Before our fingers ever touched
I became aware of this love"
GREEN - ayumi hamasaki
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Today is a bad day.
So it was SS today... SEQ and SBQ were both easy to me, just that the way the questions were phrased in SBQ took a while to digest... thus making me spend 1 hour 15 min on it.
I was only left with 15 min for my SEQ.
And I didn't finish it.
I didn't do my part b) for SEQ at all. 13 marks gone. Just like that.
I wish I would have done SEQ first... it was so much easier to comprehend... than the SBQ...
Hahaha for the past few papers, I've been thinking that I would be able to get into the school that I want to, because I'm really confident for my papers, barring Maths.
Now... maybe, or most likely, I will be doing very well. An ominous feeling. Above 20 points I guess. Retribution? But for what? I don't know either.
I'm feeling very demoralized now. But once again, I know again that I will feel all right the next day.
I wonder if it's because of my ability to bounce back after each adversity that people think it's okay to disturb me. Supposing that I am a weakling who stumbles and never gets up after a fall, will people start to sympathize with me? Will people finally start leaving me alone? Will people finally start showing concern to me?
I'm sick of this 'I'm independent' mindset sometimes. Sometimes I wish I wasn't so independent. Sometimes I wish I wouldn't be walking home/waiting at the bus stop alone and thinking, "It's all right." Sometimes I wish I could be a super cool joker to get everyone's attention, and have everyone to be my friend.
Sometimes, I...
I don't belong in any clique in my class, but I belong in every clique in my class. I guess that's why I'm really not particularly close to any of my classmates.
Band. Oh I forgot I've passed out and shouldn't going back to disturb people whom I want to see again.
I don't know what to do now. I feel kind of lost. Maybe when this night is over, I'll start feeling better. It has always been like that, right?
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"I was born alone and would live alone
I thought it was certainly natural for me to live in such a way"
A Song For xx - ayumi hamasaki
"At the moment the wind changes
Before I can see my loved one
I wonder if I should say how I feel"
GREEN - ayumi hamasaki
Listened to music @ 8:57 PM
♥ Sunday, November 02, 2008
"However far I escape, I can't have a clean escape
How far does my past catch up after me?"
GUILTY - ayumi hamasaki
"I want to see you
I want to see you
I don't know what to do
As you are only smiling so tenderly in my memory"
HANABI - ayumi hamasaki
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Tomorrow is SS. Prepared? I guess so. One last final revision tomorrow morning, and I think this paper will be easy (provided the way the questions asked are at least comprehend-able...)!
You know, it feels kind of cold tonight. I mean, it's autumn now after all... so the seasons have changed, many things have changed... It's getting colder by each day. Even so, I can only reach my hand out, straight and forward, towards the freezing cold, right?
There's just this sudden rush of emotions in me now... and I feel so tired at the same time. Tired of what? The chasing? The clinging? The escaping?
Sometimes, it's even better if people don't see each other. What used to be an excitement and looking forward, is now a fear of meeting, because you only know the outcome too well...
Escaping from reality. My forte, unfortunately.
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"The wind is blowing strongly against me
The cold is piercing me unusually
Now I reach out straight and forward
With my hand numbed in the freezing cold"
decision - ayumi hamasaki
"Even now, I still remember everything
Your voice calling my name, your casual habits
I want to forget, and I don't want to forget"
HANABI ~episode II~ - ayumi hamasaki
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♥ Friday, October 31, 2008
"Reality is a traitor;
It's easy to misjudge things
So with your own eyes
Ascertain the value of this place
With your own standards"
evolution - ayumi hamasaki
"I wonder why it is so difficult
For people to walk the path that their heart lays out for them
Even though I should have always known
I adverted my eyes from the reality
I denied the truth"
GREEN - ayumi hamasaki
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I slacked the whole day today oh gosh. And I went to watch High School Musical 3: Senior Year with Nic Tan, Justin and James Onggo, and Hwee Young. Um the movie is really nice but I don't think Zac Efron is as hot as what everyone seems to think.
Ashley Tisdale on the other hand... hahaha!
Well, I'm still ill. I finally got my hands on Panadol FLU MAX and more Strepsils so I hope I will get well soon.
Next week is the LAST week of O' Levels! It may seem like an easy week for everyone, but it's not one for me, because I have like 4 papers next week...
So this is the schedule for my papers next week:
Mon: SS
Wed: Higher Chinese
Thur: Geog Paper 2
Fri: Lit
And actually, two Tuesdays is Science MCQ but never mind.
So, yeah. Then I'll be liberated omg finally.
La la la la...
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"From the moment those feelings overflowed
Before our fingers ever touched
I became aware of this love
At the moment the wind changes
Before I can see my loved one
I wonder if I should say how I feel"
GREEN - ayumi hamasaki
Listened to music @ 10:14 PM
