♥ Monday, July 31, 2006
Ok, today I went through my message archives in MSN, and I immeditely when to look at this person. My first 2 messages to him were all friendly and nice and I was just touched. But then after that, because of my fucking attitude and stupidity and so brazen to express all my thoughts, this senior of mine started to hate me, to the point that I regretted it. It was my fault along, I'm not trying to ask you to forgive me or what have you, but I want you to know that I am remorseful of my actions, words and attitude, and I just would like to blog about this.
This senior is ************** from 3 blah blah blah, plays the Tblahblahblahblah *hint hint a long name of this instrument*.
Yup that's all.
Jun Xiang confessed on Monday, 31st July, 2006, 17 49 hours.
Listened to music @ 5:54 PM
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Ok, yesterday was the concert and let me tell you it was a fantastic experience. But I shan't elaborate cos like it's your loss that you didn't come for the concert so I'm not gonna tell you anything about it, yeah go regret it if you want.
Anyway after Shrek Dance Party, we were getting off the stage, and like I looked around and I realised that there were still the alumni trumpet files, the first trumpet file. And like I don't see Andre around means that he has fled to backstage, ok so maybe the alumni and the first trumpet files are none of his fucking business then what about the mutes? He didn't use them at all? He did! And there they were, all the mutes still at the stage, and Andre didn't even pick one up. I mean like as a SL, shouldn't he be more pro-active and actually just help? Then at backstage with my bag and personal belongings still at the couch I went to take Darren's trumpet and file, passed the alumni trumpet files to Wai Hoe and heck it I had to left the mutes on the table, thank God I have Manuel so he helped me put the trumept mutes together with the trombone mutes. And he also helped me to take the scores to the bus. See? A sec1 and a sec2 managing the section while the SL is nowhere to be seen. So I was running here and there, and guess what? I saw Andre and he still could say "Wow, you are still wearing a blazer." Like wtf, he thinks I enjoy wearing it, I didn't have the time to even take my blazer and tie off cos I was keeping all the stuff of the trumpets and like it's not even my business cos I'm a mere sec2 junior!!! Ok then I ran and went to keep my trumpet and after that I saw Darren and he helped me to pack the files for Manuel, in which I ran to the back to take my bag and belongings in which I took my blazer and tie off. Ok, so I ran to take my trumpet and along the way, I saw Hong Chow and he passed me this trumpet which was the school's and one alumni memeber used it. So he told me too keep it for him. And like omg I only saw my own case there! The other trumpet cases are GONE!!! Like omg, I was like fucking tired and pissed off then. So with 1 hand carrying my bags and blazer and the trumpet and the other hand holding my trumpet, I raced down to the buses, and I placed my stuff in the bus and loaded the trumpets. And guess what? One bloody case was empty and like that was the case of the trumpet that one of the alumni used. See! Andre just took all the trumpets down, not even bothering to check if there are trumpets/mouthpieces in the cases!!! Darren and Hong Chow do that, even the sec3 SLs like Stanley know such basic management section skills, so why can't Andre do it? Cos he sucks!!! Oh ya, Jeremy, my section member came to me and told me his mouthpiece is stuck and like omg shouldn't he be finding Andre who is the SL!!!??? Oh wait, I forgot, Andre was in somewhere not to be found! What a reactive and irresponsible SL!!! It's bad enough that he's so weird already, and like still say "I am the SL now, I have the right to pump anyone in my section if he shows me attitude." What the FUCK!!!??? There he is slacking as a SL doing God knows what and like trying to abuse his power???!!! This is way too much!!! Ok, so in the end, I found out that Andre has been all along helping the percussion to load their stuff. Ok, like it's not like he can't help them but as a SL, he should help his own section first, make sure it is all right before he goes helping the percussion? I mean like where is his pro-activeness and initiative???
Ok, all in all I conclude that Andre sucks to the very core.
Jun Xiang bitched in Monday, 31st July, 2006, 17 38 hours.
Listened to music @ 5:43 PM
♥ Saturday, July 29, 2006
Omg, I was like watching the Lake House with Darren, Yong Di, Aron and Jason Onggo, so I didn't get the chance to blog about the sec4s yesterday, so I'll blog everything today.
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The big fight: On 11th Feb 2006, which was a Saturday, most of the sec4s didn't come and I was very pissed and disappointed. I mean like at that time I was like it's only a few more months and there they are, not coming for band prac. So I was fking pissed off. And complications brewed and finally, a confrontation which I lost badly. I remembered the day before the confrontation, I wrote a 2 page letter to the sec4s, and the next day, I was like so pissed that i tore the letter up, and like I was really pissed. Then I spoke to Xiu Hao and I just cried cried cos it's not something I can take, that they are not here with me. And from then now, I guessed I grew more attached to them.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever
That you've been gone
She said "Some days I feel like shit
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And I find myself tryin' stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me when I feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Hallowe'en with candy by the pile,
But now you only stop by every once in a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
Anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,I'm doin' fine,
I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find you have somethin' to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For while you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you'll sing it...
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
"Where'd You Go" featuring Holly Brook, Fort Minor.
If saying goodbye is the way to say hello, then I'd rather that we don't speak at all...
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The Alumni Sec4s
For a reason, alot of the sec4s are very talented and good in their skills in which they joined the alumni and just to let you know the alumni band clinched a top band status of the open (or is it 1st?) division of the 1st NBC!!!
Ok anyway, here is a page to them --- the sec4s of the alumni.
They... even though they do not speak as much as the others, even though they look aloof, even though they might be anti-social, but still, secretly, I've had respect for them cos like you have to be good to get into the alumni, and there they are! Like, I don't speak much to them but I'm sure they know that among the band, there are juniors like me who well erm think they're great! Ya, so haha, it must be a waste if any of you'all decide to drop your playing so must continue to play ar...
Jason Ng, Simeon, Douglas, Wai Hoe, Zhao Duan, Hong Chow, Ryan, Jason Onggo, kudos for great playing skills.
The good-bye message:
Life is hard and shitty and things always come to an end, my destiny with the sec4s shall end on 30th July 2006, but I'm sure we'll meet up again, on MSN, after school, or even when you guys come back for band prac with us to help us! Ya, I'll look forward to see each and every one of you guys. I salute you guys for your 3.5 years in band and the contribution you guys have made and everything and everything.
Say good-bye
To not knowing when
The truth in my whole life began
Say good-bye
To not knowing how to cry
You taught me that
And I'll remember
The strength that you gave me
Now that I'm standing on my own
I'll remember
The way that you saved me
I'll remember
InsideI was a child
That could not mend a broken wing
OutsideI looked for a way
To teach my heart to sing
And I'll remember
The love that you gave me
Now that I'm standing on my own
I'll remember
The way that you changed me
I'll remember
I learned
To let go
Of the illusion that we can possess
I learned
To let go
I travel in stillness
And I'll remember
Happiness
I'll remember
And I'll remember
The love that you gave me
Now that I'm standing on my own
I'll remember
The way that you changed me
I'll remember (I'll remember)
No I've never been afraid to cry
Now I finally have a reason why
I'll remember (I'll remember)
No I've never been afraid to cry
And I finally have a reason why
I'll remember (I'll remember)
No I've never been afraid to cry
And I finally have a reason why
I'll remember (I'll remember)
No I've never been afraid to cry
And I finally have a reason why
I'll remember (I'll remember)
"I'll Remember" Madonna.
This concludes the end of the mourning. Look forward to more posts!
Jun Xiang confessed on Monday, 31st July, 2006, 17 11 hours.
Listened to music @ 9:07 PM
♥ Thursday, July 27, 2006
From today to Saturday, there will be a 3 day mourning session for the sec4s. So please bear with the sad messages cos it's gonna be sad.
The arrival of the sec4s:
In 2005, when I just joined band, I was in the tuba section. My then sec3 senior, Xiu Hao taught me single-handedly. I would never forget the smile and love he showed me. Even though I wasn't very good in my tuba skills, Xiu Hao never failed to lose his temper with me. I was very blessed and glad at that time to have a wonderful senior like Xiu Hao. Through him, I learnt alot and also met up with the rest of the sec4s.
Soon after, Xiu Hao's best friends, Darren, Yong Di, Dick, Aron, Yu Huai and Sean came and I got to know them better. And we shared laughs together and I realised that they were my really good friends.
Darren: I remembered the first time when Darren came was that he came to show off that his juniors can play quavers. Lol, then he started to teach me too. Darren, actually is a very nice person. Perhaps people just look at him in a wrong perspective, that's all. And now, as a trumpeter, with Darren teaching me, I realised just how great a senior he is. Every morning, he would come down to the band room despite his big homework load, to teach me. I was very touched by this, and I vowed to myself that I would really work hard and be the best trumpeter and beat the others. And also, at the beginning of the year, when I was still a tubaist, Darren and Xiu Hao taught me the song to play for the sec1 welcoming orientation. And I remembered that I really sucked at it and I really couldn't play it at all. And when we went back to the band room, he spoke to me, a very touching message, and I just burst in tears.
Yong Di: I remebered last year when Xiu Hao was speaking to Mrs Chia, and I had nothing to do. So I spoke to Yong Di, and we ended up singing Britney Spear's songs! And from then on, Yong Di and I have become good friends. His constant humor and sacarsm always got me laughing like crazy, without him, I guess I would laugh less lor.
Dick: Haha, Dick. The very smart one who's in 4B and like good in studies and a pro in his trombone. And I remembered once during the band camp last year, while they were doing patrol stuff, like omg, Dick stepped on my specs and it was totally broken. The next morning, he meticulously fixed my specs, cos he was a QM, QMs know how to fix stuff, haha. And the bad thing was I lost my screw so like omg, he had to like use rubber bands and stuff like that. All that trouble to help me... Dick is one senior hard to forget.
Aron: Aron, who's a trombonist too, is the innocent and so called cute one. He shared jokes with us and he was like one of the seniors where I can roll my eyes at his very "diao" moments, but still never to find him irritating.
Yu Huai: Yu Huai is the band major of the band and also part of Dick and company's member. He may seem all strict during drills but outside of it... haha he's a very funny person and a good music teacher too. Very jumpy and sporty too, very hard to tell la, cos he so skinny not a single muscle on his body, can't tell that he's a sporty person.
Sean: When I first saw him, I was like "Omg, this person...?!" I always thought he's one very evil person, cos he looks like one! But of course, after time, I got to know Sean better and I realised he's just one of those big guys with a big heart. Loving anime like anything, Sean is just one worthy friend to ever have.
And there goes Dick and co. I would never ever forget them, and I was just really scared about that day when they would pass out and when they would never come back again...
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith cos you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith cos you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith cos you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
"Because You Loved Me" Celine Dion
I guess every single line in this song clearly shows everything that I feel about you guys. I just hope 30th July would never come cos it's not that I'm afraid of the concert, but I'm afraid of losing you guys forever...
Jun Xiang confessed on Thursday, 27th July, 2006, 22 32 hours.
Listened to music @ 10:32 PM
♥ Saturday, July 22, 2006
(from Revelation 1:3)
Blessed is he who reads aloud the words of the prophecy
And blessed are those who hear
And who keep what is written therein
For the time is near
(from Revelation 1:7)
He is coming with the clouds
And every eye will see him
Everyone who pierced him
And all the tribes of the earth will wail on account of him
(from Revelation 2:1-4)
Those of you who have not learned
What some call the deep things of Satan
I know your works
I know your toil
And your patient endurance
And how you cannot hear evil men
But have tested those who call themselves
Apostles
But are not
And found them to be false
I know you are enduring patiently
And bearing out
For my namesake
And you have not grown weary
But I have this against you
That you have abandoned
The love you had
(from Revelation 2:9-10)
I know your tribulation and your poverty
And the slander of those who say
That they are Jews
But they are not
They are a synagogue of Satan
Do not fear what you are about to suffer
Behold the devil is about to throw you into prison
(from Revelation 13:1-10)
And I saw a beast rising out of the sea
With ten horns and seven heads
And a blasphemous name upon its head
And the beast that I saw was like a leopard
Its feet were like a bear's
And its mouth was like a lion's mouth
And to it the dragon gave his power
And his throne
And great authority
One of his heads had a mortal wound
But it seemed to have a mortal wound
That was healed
And the whole earth followed the beast with wonder
Men worshipped the dragon
For he had given his authority to the beast
And they worshipped the beast saying
"Who is like the beast and who can fight against the beast?"
And the beast was given a mouth
Uttering haughty and blasphemous words
And it was allowed to exercise authority for forty-two months
It opened its mouth to utter blasphemous
Words
Against
God
It was allowed to make war on the saints
And to conquer them
And authority was given it over every tribe
And a people and tongue and nation
And all who dwell on earth could worship it
In vain
If anyone has an ear let him hear
If anyone is to be taken captive, into captivity he will goIf anyone who slays with the sword, with the sword
(from Revelation 21:1-8)
ThenI saw a new heaven
And a new earth
And I heard a great voice from the throne saying
"Behold the dwelling of God is with men
He will dwell with them
And they shall be his people
And God himself will be with them
He will wipe away every tear from their eyes
And death shall be no more
Neither shall there be mourning
Nor crying
Nor pain
Anymore
For these things will have passed away
To the thirsty I will give water without price
From the fountain of the water of life
He who conquers shall have this heritage
And I will be his God and he shall be my son
But as for the cowardly, the faithless, the polluted
As for the murderers, fornicators, sorcerers, idolators
And all liars
Their lot shall be in the lake
That burns with fire and brimstone"
(from Revelation 22:10-13)
And he said to me
He said to me
"Do not seal up the words of the prophecy
For the time is near
Let the evildoers still do evil
And the filthy still be filthy
And the righteous still do right
And the holy still be holy
Behold
I am coming soon
I am the alpha
And the omega
The first
And the last
The beginning
And the end"
Amen
Extracts from the Book of Revelation, the last canonical book of the New Testament in the Bible.
The Book of Revelation:
The book of Revelation or The Apocalypse of John is the last canonical book of the New Testament in the Bible. It is the only biblical book that is wholly composed of apocalyptic literature. The book is frequently called by the incorrect name Book of Revelations. However, the actual title of the book is The Revelation of Jesus Christ ... unto his servant John, as it is rendered in the first verse.
At every morning assembly in school, I hear the prayers and it read "Forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sinned against us."
Can we really do that? Can we forgive those who sinned against us and therefore have God's forgiveness? I don't see at all. There are people around me bearing grudges, swearing with the word "hate", we have not done what God wants us to do. We have betrayed God, we have defied His orders, we have ignored His wish for human to be forgiven of hatred and sins. As what everyone says, that God will continue to bless us and forgive us. Really? Is it true? How can we expect for God's blessings and forgiveness if we can't even fufill His wishes?
"Forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sinned against us."
Please, show forgiveness to those whom you hate or discriminate. Prove to God that you deserve His forgiveness.
"Forgive us our sins, as we forgived those who sinned against us."
The wonders of God, only to be embraced by us when we are rid of our wrath, hatred and sins...
Anyway, I am totally addicted to band now, the constant practices with Mr Chiang is very helpful and useful. And yes, expect surprises this week. And of course! I've bought presents for the sec4s! That is, only the sec4s who are in alumni cos the rest had confirmed with me that they would be back on POP. And amongst the presents receivers, comes a person who would never expect he would get a present, least of all from me.
Remember God's wishes.
Jun Xiang confessed on Saturday, 22nd July, 2006, 17 32 hours.
Listened to music @ 5:33 PM
♥ Saturday, July 15, 2006
I traded fame for love
Without a second thought
It all became a silly game
Some things cannot be bought
I got exactly what I asked for
Wanted it so badly
Running, rushing back for more
I suffered fools
So gladly
And now I find
I've changed my mind
The face of you
My substitute for love
My substitute for love
Should I wait for you?
My substitute for love
My substitute for love
I traveled round the world
Looking for a home
I found myself in crowded rooms
Feeling so alone
I had so many lovers
Who settled for the thrill
Of basking in my spotlight
I never felt
So happy
The face of you
My substitute for love
My substitute for love
Should I wait for you?
My substitute for love
My substitute for love
Mmmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Oh oh oh ohh
Famous faces, far off places
Trinkets I can buy
No handsome stranger, heady danger
Drug that I can try
No ferris wheel, no heart to steal
No laughter in the dark
No one night stand, no far off land
No fire that I can spark
Mmmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Mmmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
The face of you
My substitute for love
My substitute for love
Mmmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Should I wait for you?
My substitute for love
My substitute for love
Now I find
I've changed my mind
This is my religion
"Drowned World/Substitute For Love" Madonna from the album RoL.
It is a drowned world out that I face now, just what could be that thing out there that doesn't judge me, that doesn't take as someone superficial, someone who takes me as someone real, with emotions, not a robot whom you can do anything you want to me, cos I'm only human, there is a limit to all that I can do. Unless I get you telling me personally that yeah let's be friends, I feel fear inside. So please, tell it in my face ok? I am not feeling very well now... The feeling of fear and sadness is shit.
Jun Xiang confessed on Saturday, July 15th, 2006, 23 14 hours.
Listened to music @ 11:20 PM
♥ Monday, July 10, 2006
Woot! I'm feeling extra happy these days. It seems that all the effort I've put in in the past have paid off. Can I stop myself from creating more controversies from now on? Hope I can, if not I'm gonna get busted again, feeling hurt again. Everybody says it can't be done, but still I survived. So, miracles do happen right? Yeah must be right.
World Cup fever... I am like the weirdest person here cos' I only watch the finals... And besides that, I am actually watching for the performance of Shakira at the closing ceremony... ^_^ Haha! Anyway, Italy like so totally won and I am NOT happy with it cos i support France, ok?!... Oh whatever, they lost so I must accept it lor!
Oh ya, Jessica Simpson is a SLUT like S-L-U-T! Cos "her" latest single A Public Affair, is totally unoriginal and stupid.
1) It sounds alot like Madonna's Holiday. POSER! P-O-S-E-R!!!
2) The lyrics suck as much as my Maths (and my Maths improving somemore...), "All my girls, dance blah blah blah and have a public affair, who cares blah blah blah..." C'mon, All my girls? That is so a rip off from her lil sis Ashlee's L.O.V.E!!! W-H-O-R-E!!! Girls having a public affair??? What are they doing? S&M or Les bonding? STUPID. At least Madonna expressed it well in Erotica.
3) She so totally broke up with Nick Lachey, let's see Nick Lachey has reflective, tear-jerking songs on his post divorce album. But A Public Affair is a... DANCE song!!! Like OMFG, all the painful break-up songs are either ballads or they are some revenge rock song, sadly and as expected, Jessica has no brains to think of that, her mindset of "Doing something different" is as expected, a piece of SHIT. So A Public Affair is a DANCE song! And when the album comes out... Please take a look at Point No.4 .
4)When her album, A Public Affair, comes out in August, 29th, 2006, I advise you, don't buy it AT ALL. Why? Cos I predict it's gonna suck like her previous album so when sales suck, she's gonna release the same album, enhanced, probably with her fuck video with Nick Lachey, or how they broke up, see, she NEEDS to attract sales.
5) The chicken-tuna incident is still getting on my nerves. B-I-M-B-O. Like she's totally a retard. "She's got double D's." Joe Simpson, her father. Wait, how does he know she's got double D's??? Omg... and so what even if she has double D's? Big deal when she's still a BITCH.
All in all, I conclude that Jessica Simpson is a disgrace to all Leos out there (Madonna included!), and she shouldn't be a Leo cos she doesn't have the attribute of one. Yeah she sucks. If I may comment, her sis Ashlee is a billion times better than her. Period.
I'll try to keep my happiness for a longer time. Ok? Please the world, guide me for my road of happiness.
When I look inside myself, I see a hero in myself, not a hero that saves the world, but a hero that fights my fears and guides me along with hope, faith and love...
Jun Xiang bitched on Monday, June 10th, 2006, 21 33 hours.
Listened to music @ 9:37 PM
♥ Saturday, July 08, 2006
Everybody comes to MSSB
They wanna make it in the neighbourhood
They like the smell of it in MSSB
How could it hurt you when it looks so good
Shine your light now
This time it's got to be good
You get it right now, yeah
Cause you're in MSSB
There's something in the air in MSSB
The sun is shining like you knew it would
You're playin' your instrument in MSSB
You got the top down and it feels so good
Everybody comes to MSSB
They wanna make it in the neighbourhood
They like the smell of it in MSSB
How could it hurt you when it looks so good
I lost my memory in MSSB
I've had a million visions bad and good
There's something in the air in MSSB
I tried to leave it but I never could
Shine your light now
This time it's got to be good
You get it right now, yeah
Cause you're in MSSB
There's something in the air in MSSB
I've lost my reputation bad and good
You're playin' your instrument in MSSB
You got the top down and it feels so good
The conductor always conducts the same songs
I'm bored with the concept of right and wrong
Everybody comes to MSSB
They wanna make it in the neighbourhood
They like the smell of it in MSSB
How could it hurt you when it looks so good
Shine your light now
This time it's got to be good
You get it right now, yeah
Cause you're in MSSB
Cause you're in MSSB
Cause you're in MSSB
In MSSB
In MSSB
In MSSB
Check it out
This bird has flown
Shine your light now
This time it's got to be good
You get it right now, yeah
Cause you're in MSSB
Cause you're in MSSB
Cause you're in MSSB
In MSSB
In MSSB
In MSSB
Push the button, don't push the button
Trip the station, change the channel
Push the button, don't push the button
Trip the station, change the channel
Push the button, don't push the button
Trip the station, change the channel
Push the button, don't push the button
Trip the station, change the channel
"MSSB" Jun Xiang. P.S. "MSSB" contains lyircs from "Hollywood" Madonna from the album American Life.
Just as how Madonna used Hollywood as a metaphor to describe her life, MSSB is a place, a memory, that I can't get rid of no matter how hard I try. It's a place where I first got backstabbed, the place where I first backstabbed someone, the first place where people hated me, the first place where I really had enthusiasm in. MSSB has the people who first hated me, who first backstabbed me, whom I first backstabbed, whom I felt for a first time a close connection to. MSSB is a memory I try so hard to hold on to, the good ones and the bad ones, and I can't shake it off. MSSB that memory that I would really want to forget yet remember.
Disclaimer: "MSSB" is actually just "Hollywood" but the word Hollywood in the song have been changed to MSSB and some sentences have been changed to suit the situation.
A man can tell a thousand lies, I've learned my lesson well. Hope I live to tell, the secret I have learned. Until then it will burn inside of me.
I'm waiting, yearning, hoping, wishing, wanting, needing, praying, anticipating for you to JUSTIFY my love...
Jun Xiang bitched on Saturday, June 8th, 2006, 17 48 hours.
Listened to music @ 5:48 PM
♥ Friday, July 07, 2006
I can't help falling in love
I fall deeper and deeper the further I go
Kisses sent from heaven above
They get sweeter and sweeter the more that I know
When you know the notes to sing
You can sing most anything
That's what my mama told me
Round and round and round you go
When you find love you'll always know
I let my father mold me
Daddy couldn't be all wrong(Not gonna let you slip away, I'm gonna be there)
And my mama made me learn this song(You're gonna bring your love to me, I'm gonna get you)
That's why
I can't help falling in love
I fall deeper and deeper the further I go
Kisses sent from heaven above
They get sweeter and sweeter the more that I know
The deeper I go
All is fair in love she said
Think with your heart, not with your head
That's what my mama told me
All the little things you do
Will end up coming back to you
I let my father mold me
Daddy couldn't be all wrong(Not gonna let you slip away, I'm gonna be there)
And my mama made me learn this song(You're gonna bring your love to me, I'm gonna get you)
That's why
I can't help falling in love
I fall deeper and deeper the further I go
Kisses sent from heaven above
They get sweeter and sweeter the more that I know
I can't help falling in love
I fall deeper and deeper the further I go
Kisses sent from heaven above
They get sweeter and sweeter the more that I know
Someone said that romance was dead
And I believed it instead of remembering
What my mama told me
Let my father mold me
Then you tried to hold me
You remind me what they said
This feeling inside
I can't explain
But my love is alive
And I'm never gonna hide it again
Daddy couldn't be all wrong(Not gonna let you slip away, I'm gonna be there)
And my mama made me learn this song(You're gonna bring your love to me, I'm gonna get you)
That's why
I can't help falling in love
I fall deeper and deeper the further I go
Kisses sent from heaven above
They get sweeter and sweeter the more that I know
Deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper
Never gonna hide it again
Sweeter and sweeter and sweeter and sweeter
Never gonna have to pretend
Deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper
Never gonna hide it again
Sweeter and sweeter and sweeter and sweeter
Never gonna have to pretend
You got to just let your body move to the music
You got to just let your body go with the flow
Falling in love, falling in love, falling in love
I can't keep from falling in love with you
You know there's nothing better that I'd like to do
"Deeper and Deeper" Madonna from the album Erotica
This song was a major success in the charts, since it's a wonder dance song. The lyrics might seem like whatever, but they hold more meaning than anything. The lyrics are supposedly to be a reflection of a homosexual man. And indeed the lyrics sort of match up to it. However, even if you're not gay the beautiful lyrics of "Deeper and Deeper" can apply to even the most ordinary life. We hear our mama telling us how we should be like somebody else cos he's so fucking smart. Our father is our inspiration he says "fuck" and we follow suit. But just as being gay, you can't just suddenly fuck girls cos your mind is full of fantasies of fucking men. When we are sick and tired, can we change? We can't change from a gay to a straight man, we can't change our parents for bloody god's sake. Gotta live to it.
Haven't we met
You're some kind of beautiful stranger
You could be good for me
I've had the taste for danger
If I'm smart then I'll run away
But I'm not so I guess I'll stay
Heaven forbid
I'll take my chance on a beautiful stranger
I looked into your eyes
And my world came tumbling down
You're the devil in disguise
That's why I'm singing this song
To know you is to love you
You're everywhere I go
And everybody knows
To love you is to be part of you
I've paid for you with tears
And swallowed all my pride
Da-da-da-dum da-dum da-dum da da da-da dum
Beautiful stranger
Da-da-da-dum da-dum da-dum da da da-da dum
Beautiful stranger
If I'm smart then I'll run away
But I'm not so I guess I'll stay
Haven't you heard
I fell in love with a beautiful stranger
I looked into your face
My heart was dancing all over the place
I'd like to change my point of view
If I could just forget about you
To know you is to love you
You're everywhere I go
And everybody knows
I looked into your eyes
And my world came tumbling down
You're the devil in disguise
That's why I'm singing this song to you
To know you is to love you
You're everywhere I go
And everybody knows
I've paid for you with tears
And swallowed all my pride
Da-da-da-dum da-dum da-dum da da da-da dum
Beautiful stranger
Da-da-da-dum da-dum da-dum da da da-da dum
Beautiful stranger
*Beautiful flute solo then fade till the end*
"Beautiful Stranger" Madonna from the album Austin Powers: The Spy Who Shagged Me Offical Soundtrack
You are a beautiful stranger. I look like I've known you for years, ok 1 1/2 years to be exact. But I always and still feel that I don't know anything much about you, can we not be so distant from each other? If that one day comes when we can ignore the rumors and always be friends, can we bear to lose our faces for friendship?
Today is the last day
That I'm using words
They've gone out
Lost their meaning
Don't function anymore
Let's
Let's
Let's get unconscious honey
Let's get unconscious honey
Today is the last day
That I'm using words
They've gone out
Lost their meaning
Don't function anymore
Traveling
Leaving logic and reason
Traveling
To the arms of unconsciousness
Traveling
Leaving logic and reason
Traveling
To the arms of unconsciousness
Let's get unconscious honey
Let's get unconscious
Let's get unconscious honey
Let's get unconscious
Words are useless
Especially sentences
They don't stand for anything
How could they explain how I feel
Traveling, traveling
I'm traveling
Traveling, traveling
Leaving logic and reason
Traveling, traveling
I'm gonna relax
Traveling, traveling
In the arms of unconsciousness
Let's get unconscious honey
Let's get unconscious
Let's get unconscious
And inside
We're all still wet
Longing and yearning
How can I explain how I fee
lLet's get unconscious honey
Let's get unconscious
Let's get unconscious honey
Let's get unconscious
Traveling, traveling
Traveling, traveling
Traveling, traveling
Traveling, traveling
In the arms of unconsciousness
And all that you've ever learned
Try to forget
I'll never explain again
"Bedtime Story" Madonna from the album Bedtime Stories
Words are useless especially sentences. How true.I can say tons of sentences but would you understand it? Would you understand how I feel? All I need is one word and you'll know how I feel.Like when I say "fuck!", you'll know I'm pissed off. When I say "aww..." you know that I'm touched. When I say "whatever." you know that I'm seriously not caring what you say. When I say "haha!" you know I'm happy. See, all I know is one word and I can express my emotions. Say "fuck!" more!!!
Keep on pushing like nobody...
Jun Xiang bitched on Friday, July 7th, 2006, 14 59 hours.
Listened to music @ 3:23 PM
♥ Monday, July 03, 2006
The James Bond movie , Die Another Day, was a box office hit. However, the movie did not inspire me at all. In fact it was Madonna's wonderful and noble contribution the film's soundtrack, the funky techno-filled, hit Die Another Day. It's lyrics are inspiring, it has a wonderful beat, its techno stuff rocks, it is just perfect. Read the lyrics below to find out why I love them so much.
I'm gonna wake up, yes and no
I'm gonna kiss, some part of
I'm gonna keep this secret
I'm gonna close my body now
I guess I'll die another day
I guess I'll die another day
I guess I'll die another day
I guess I'll die another day
Sigmund Freud
Analyze this
Analyze this
Analyze this, this, this,...
I'm gonna break the cycle
I'm gonna shake up the system
I'm gonna destroy my ego
I'm gonna close my body now
I think I'll find another way
There's so much more to know
I guess I'll die another day
It's not my time to go
For every sin
I'll have to pay
A time to work, a time to play
I think I'll find another way
It's not my time to go
I'm gonna avoid the cliché
I'm gonna suspend my senses
I'm gonna delay my pleasure
I'm gonna close my body now
I guess I'll die another day
I guess I'll die another day
I guess I'll die another day
I guess I'll die another day
I think I'll find another way
There's so much more to know
I guess
I'll die another day
It's not my time to go
Uh! Uh!
(laughs)
(I need to lay down)
I guess I'll die another day
I guess I'll die another day
I guess I'll die another day
I guess I'll die another day
Another day, another day
Another day, another day
Another day, another day
Another day
"Die Another Day" Madonna from the album American Life
So you can clearly see that the lyrics are about living with the scars of life but not giving up to them and actually live with it. It aspires me to live on with my life, not bothering of what others say and getting on with life, though it might seem like whatever but seriously, Madonna has inspired me again and again with her lyrics, inducing gay icons with her songs, Deeper and Deeper and Vogue, Madonna has done what nobody in the 1980s, 1990s, or even now, would wanna do, hail Madonna, the Queen of Pop!
So... I would insults as Madonna telling me to Die Another Day...
If I could melt your heart, we'd never be apart... How can I when I was the one who made you frozen in the first place?
With reference to Deeper and Deeper, it was a hot dance jam in her Erotica album, but when the lyrics were revealed to be a reflection of a gay man, it caused controversy.
In Vogue, the video was stunning and Vogue is a dance by gay men F.Y.I .
Ya so long.
Jun Xiang bitched on Monday, 3rd July, 2006, 22 59 hours.
Listened to music @ 11:03 PM
♥ Sunday, July 02, 2006
I went for tuition and like omg, my first tuition in like 2 years! I was stoning all the while being so anti social... But the good thing was I finally knew how to do linear and qudratic graphs... Haha...
The theme of my blog has once again been changed to none other than the address itself... Forbidden love!
Just one kiss on my lips
Was all it took to seal the future
Just one look from your eyes
Was like a certain kind of torture
Once upon a time
There was a boy
There was a girl
Just one touch from your hands
Was all it took to make me falter
Forbidden love
Are we supposed to be together?
Forbidden love
Forbidden love
Forbidden love
We seal the destiny forever
Forbidden love
Forbidden love
Just one smile on your face
Was all it took to change my fortune
Just one word from your mouth
Was all I needed to be certain
Once upon a time
There was a boy
There was a girl
Hearts that intertwine
They lived in a different kind of world
Just one kiss
Just one touch
Just one look
Forbidden love
Are we supposed to be together?
Forbidden love
Forbidden love
Forbidden love
We seal the destiny forever
Forbidden love
Forbidden love
Just one kiss
Just one touch
Just one look
Just one love...
Oh my god, I still... love you and have feelings for you even after you left, hate me, and me blaming and finding fault in you.
It is amazing what you can do to me, your charm, your personality, your sex appeal (whatever), just you and you, attracted me so much that I don't care what others say, I will never stop loving you.
Many miles, many roads I've travelled, many hearts, many years unraveled, until I found you, I have no regrets, there is nothing to forget about you, everything is perfect with you...
Doesn't it feel great to be loved? Like why should you be pissed?...
True love, you're the one I'm dreaming of, your heart fits me like a glove and I'm gonna be true blue baby I love you...
I am feeling so high now...
But the problem is you don't know how much I feel for you, and you assumed I sucked and you didn't wanna be even a friend with me... =(
Oh my god, these thinkings are making me feel sad... T.T
But no matter what, I'll stand my ground and always believe for a day you will accept me not in love but even in a mere friendship...
Are you ready to jump with me to the unknown future? You know I'll wait for you...
Someday I'll win your trust...
I feel so hurt everytime you hand your heart up to me...
What's a forbidden love? The perfect example is you and me...
Jun Xiang bitched on Sunday, 2nd July, 2006, 21 06 hours.
Listened to music @ 7:32 PM
