♥ Sunday, May 21, 2006
I think I have created havoc and chaos in the band, and maybe I'm the most hated one. But I did make amendments. Oh, what did I do? Oh, I tried to apologize. And yes, some accepted it and that's that. Period. But some choose not to accept it, which is ok. But mixing your personal life with your job to get back at me? That's just disgusting. And yes. I do agree with Chien Teng about being biased because I hate Ken and thus blaming the whole exco. Ouch, I'm sorry. And it would be greatly appreciated by me if the exco is willing to forgive me.
And for Ken, from now on, anytihng I have with you, it's going to be just you, not your affilation. See, I cried twice because of you, my heart is already frozen by you but you chose to break it, and now it's melted and evaporated... Never would I yearn to apologize to you. Never would I yearn for you not hate me. Never. Why? Because we are officaly enemies, period. You do your own things and I do my own thing. We are not going to have anything to do with each other from like now, period.
Hatred is something bad, but yet sometimes, hatred is needed because two people can't get along. And now, I'm using hatred because I never want to and doubt that Ken and I would ever be even neutral to each other.
I don't wish to be upset again... But it's impossible...
Jun Xiang bitched at Friday, 26th May 2006, 14 59 hours.
Listened to music @ 11:58 AM
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There's something about this show that just entices me. I love this show. But this season, the 9th season was probably the best one I've ever seen. It showed one more side of hypocritism. The hippies a.k.a BJ & Tyler... were acting like they are really angelic in ever leg... and at the last leg... they lied twice to The Frat Boys a.k.a Eric and Jeremy. And in the first lie, Eric and Jeremy were like asking the hippies, "Why did you guys lie to us?" And they were like "Oh, you guys were our strongest competitors so we have to do something to help us win." Then the frat boys were like "Yeah... cos' we were trusting you guys cos you guys are like really nice." Then the hippies were like "Oh, we're sorry, and we promise we won't do it again."
Then... at the last leg... on their way to the airpot to get to Alaska, the hippies found this hotel and they were asking for internet service and they got it and they told the receptionist, "If anyone carried bags, don't tell them that you guys for internet service." How bitchy! To think they were like very kind to other teams in the past... Hypocritical hippies! Guess what? The frat boys whom I've been rooting like forever did NOT win the race!!! Why! Cos the last part is about brains!
Listened to music @ 11:58 AM
♥ Thursday, May 11, 2006
Girls can wear jeans
And cut their hair short
Wear shirts and boots
Cause it's okay to be a boy
But for a boy to look like a girl is degrading
Cause you think being a girl is degrading
But secretly
You'd love to know what it's like
Wouldn't you?
What it feels like for a girl
Silky smooth
Lips as sweet as candy, baby
Tight blue jeans
Skin that shows in patches
Strong inside but you don't know it
Good little girls they never show it
When you open up your mouth to speak
Could you be a little weak
Do you know what it feels like for a girl?
Do you know what it feels like in this world for a girl?
Hair that twirls on finger tips so gently, baby
Hands that rest on jutting hips repenting
Hurt that's not supposed to show and
Tears that fall when no one knows
When you're trying hard to be your best
Could you be a little less
Do you know what it feels like for a girl?
Do you know what it feels like in this world for a girl?
In this world
Do you know
Do you know
Do you know what it feels likefor a girl
What it feels like in this world
It feds me up how people are reacting to other people's actions. Like someone being more feminine doens't mean I'm some monster who's gonna f*** every guy he sees. So there's no reason why anyone should hate him based on that reason. Even more so, assualting him. Just cos he keeps quiet, doens't mean he's happy about it. And besides, this guy is not some selfish disgusting b******. He's just a human, sometimes bad sometimes good. So why for do you guys treat him so bad? Blocked him on MSN, treat him like an outcast, if you people really want to pin him down.. Please la... at least do it more appropriately. No point throwing paperballs and hitting him cos he won't die from that... He would die cos he's too troubled thinking why you guys hate him. For god's sake... give him a break! He ain't wanna feel blue. He likes pink and Madonna. So? Like everyone has a few favourtism towards their opposite sex. And yes... I am that guy mentioned in the story above. And I'm very pissed now. Cause I dunno why they would hate me. And even when I die... I would hunt those who hate me and ask why do they hate me... And yes, those guys are some of my seniors. Please, don't hate me. It freakes me out.
Omg... I feel like crying now... Haizz... guess that some things can never be changed...
Do you know what it feels like for a girl?
Jun Xiang bitched at 19th May, 2006, 21 02 hours.
Listened to music @ 9:51 PM
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I hated the address of my old blog so I made a new one. So this is my current blog now. And still considering if I wanna put tagboard cos alot of people are impersonating my name in the tagboard.
To him when I was crazy in love with him:
I can tell you things nobody knows
I've been everywhere nobody goes
Nothing gets me off the way that you do
You drive me crazy when you step in the room
Something 'bout your lips something about your kiss
Something 'bout your eyes keeps you on my mind
Thought it was nothing
Turns out it is something
Your're the one that keeps me up every night
Who loves you?
Who loves you?
I think I do
Yeh, yeh, I think I do
You've crawled under my skin and I feel you there
You're with me all the time you come everywhere
When I needed space I pushed you away
But then I want you back, you're hard to erase
Something 'bout your lips something about your kiss
Something 'bout your eyes keeps you on my mind
Thought it was nothing
Turns out it is something
Your're the one that keeps me up every night
Who loves you ?
Who loves you ?
Who loves you ?
Who loves you ?
I think I do
You're hard to erase
I think I do, I think I do
I can tell you things nobody knows
I've been everywhere nobody goes
Nothing gets me off the way that you do
You drive me crazy when you step in the room
Who loves you?
Who loves you?
Who loves you?
Who loves you?
To him when he started to hate me:
There's a good kind of pain
An insane kinda sane
When I'm around you
There's a chill in the heat
Feel the sky at my feet cos I adore you
I can't ignore you
I'm not ill
I don't need to
Take a pill
To fix what you do
Cure can't come through
Cos baby all I do is suffer from
Symptoms of you
There's a left kinda right
There's a blind kinda sight
Looking at you
I'm looking at you
There is no light in the moon
And it's winter in June
When I'm without you
And it trips me off my feet
I think I'm falling in too deep
Do you feel it too
Yeah
I'm not ill
I don't need to take a pill
To fix what you do
Cure can't come through
Cos baby all I do is suffer from
Symptoms of you
Then now, to him:
Do you see me
Do you feel me like I feel you
Call your number
I cannot get through
You don't hear me and I dont understand
When I reach out I don't find your hand
Were they wasted words and did they mean a thing
And all our precious time but I still feel so in between
Some day I just keep pretending
That you'll stay dreaming of a diffrent ending
I wanna hold on but it hurts so bad
And I can't keep something that I never had
I keep telling myself things can turn around with time
And if I wait it out you could always change your mind
Like a fairy tale where it works out in the end
Can I close my eyes have you lying here again?
Then I come back down
Then I fade back in
Then I realize it's just where I've been
Am I a shadow on your wall
Am I anything at all
Anything to you
Am I a secret that you keep
Do you dream me while your sleeping after all
Some day I just keep pretending
That you'll stay dreaming of a diffrent ending
I wanna hold on but it hurts so bad
And I can't keep something that I never had
And to those who hate me:
You can call me a sinner
And you can call me a saint
Celebrate me for who I am
Dislike me for what I ain't
Put me up on a pedestal
Or drag me down in the dirt
Sticks and stones will break my bones
But your names will never hurt
I'll be the garden, you'll be the snake
All of my fruit is yours to take
Better the devil that you know
Your love for me will grow
Because
This is who I am
You can like it or not
You can love me or hate me
Cause I'm never gonna change, no no
Cleopatra had her way
Mata Hari too
Whether they were good or bad
Is strictly up to you
Life is a paradox
And it doesn't make much sense
Can't have femme without the fatale
Please don't take offense
Don't let the fruit rot under the vine
Fill up your cup and let's drink the wine
Better the devil that you know
Your love for me will grow
Because
This is who I am
You can like it or not
You can love me or hate me
Cause I'm never gonna change, no no
Jun Xiang bitched at Thursday 11th May 2006, 22 28 hours
Listened to music @ 9:51 PM
