♥ Wednesday, November 05, 2008
"The gestures you casually show me
In our idle conversations
Even if I don't intend to remember
Some part within me
Wow wow oh no no no no
Remembers them well
YOU and ME"
STEP you - ayumi hamasaki
"From the moment these feelings overflowed
Before our fingers ever touched
I became aware of this love"
GREEN - ayumi hamasaki
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There are a lot of things that I don't understand, but I'll try to; I'll force myself to. Some things are not easily explained by a simple explanation, nor can I always look at a matter at its most positive result.
Perhaps I could be in the past, but not anymore.
I don't understand why you still block me.
I don't understand why you hate me so much.
I don't understand this.
I don't understand that.
But I'll try to. I'm going to force myself to understand. Even if at the end of the day, I still don't understand, at least I can pretend that I do understand.
It's tiring to always feel sad and depressed, it really is... I'll just try to be happier. Even if at a moment, I feel upset, I should pretend to feel happy. I don't know why I have to do this, but it doesn't matter, does it?
As long as you think that I'm happy and going on well and fine without you, then it's okay. I mean I guess you wouldn't bother if I'm dead or alive, but at least I try to display myself in front of everyone as being able to move on.
I know myself well, so I'm sure something will change one of these days.
You know, before I slept yesterday night, while lying on my bed, I was just reminiscing. I'm kind of taken aback by how many scenes were replaying in my memories... It's just, I really don't understand, but I have to.
No matter how many, "Why?"s I have in me... I can only bury them, and continue walking.
Take it that I don't care, or that I want to escape from reality... I just have this huge juxtaposition in my mind right now.
Run... run... run.
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Today was HCL! Nothing to say except the paper is super easy. kthxbai. I'm worried for human geog tomorrow. My human geog always sucks more than my physical one...
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"I can't think it's someone else's problem
Though we understand in our minds
We repeat the same mistakes
In other words, we are always blind"
Ladies Night - ayumi hamasaki
"At the moment the wind changes
Before I can see my loved one
I wonder if I should say how I feel"
GREEN - ayumi hamasaki
Listened to music @ 9:07 PM
