♥ Thursday, October 30, 2008
"I remember I went to sleep late that night feeling uneasy
And had a very sad dream
The phone started to ring in the morning, breaking the silence
And the premonition became a reality
Leaving an unfading scar on my heart
You became a star by yourself"
Memorial address - ayumi hamasaki
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Today, I took one of my rare naps. I just felt exhausted and fell asleep. And I had a dream; a nightmare in the daytime...
I dreamed of you. I saw you, and I seemed to have found the courage to speak to you again. I said something to you, and you ignored me. Somehow, I asked you why you were ignoring me.
You said, "Ever since I know that you are gay... you should know that I hate you now".
I followed you around... asking why, over and over again.
You tried to push me away, so as to get rid of me.
I don't know what happened, but I started asking you, "What wrong have I done that you have to do this to me?"
You said something, but I couldn't hear you. So I asked, "What?!"
Before I could hear you... I woke up.
Why? Why did I have such a dream?
Is this really going to happen? I feel so... uneasy ever since I have woken up. Maybe this dream is going to be a reality...
But it is already a reality, isn't it? I mean, that you hate me, or something like that. Something like not wanting to have anything to do with me anymore.
I guess so.
Sometimes it feels like it's fated to be able to meet everyone, and to make friends with everyone.
Because we were able to meet, it's fated. At least, that's what I think.
The less I meet you, the better it's going to be. Just go on and forget about me like how you wanted, and be happier. You will be.
Even though it's the opposite for me...
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I'm not feeling well. The flu is still on, and I couldn't find Panadol FLU MAX ... And Strepsils isn't helping much. I feel this gross sensation in my throat... no phlegm, no cough, just a weird sensation. I feel like there's a fever going on too... I've taken 4 Panadol pills today and I just don't feel any better...
Today's E-Maths Paper 2 was so-so. The questions were much easier than I thought they would be. The only question I honestly didn't know was the stupid Circles question, but thank God the whole question is only 6 marks!
Tomorrow is Bio so I can stay at home to rest, I hope.
By the way, Cristiano Ronaldo got like the FIFPro World Player of the Year 2008... whatever that is. I suppose it's some MVP thing... every sport has something like that. I don't know... I only know that Cristiano Ronaldo visits prostitutes (Wayne Rooney too)
and that he is like half-naked in his 2009 Calendar.
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"The wind strokes my cheeks and makes me feel real
Whispering softly that this is not an illusion at all"
fated - ayumi hamasaki
Listened to music @ 8:28 PM
