♥ Wednesday, October 29, 2008
"I gave up, thinking that this voice couldn't reach you
I gave up, thinking that this dream wouldn't come true
You see? Though the person before my eyes was
The real you"
fated - ayumi hamasaki
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I don't know if the reason to why we're not talking to each other is because you don't say anything to me, or if it's because I don't say anything to you.
While a part of me was thinking, "Maybe you wanted to talk to me too, and just like me, you're waiting for me to say something to you.", the reality just speaks so correctly, "He still blocked you in MSN..."
So perhaps this should be a yardstick. Until that day when you unblock me, I'll talk to you. If not, there's no point in persisting in something that I know of the results too well.
I finished my paper and left towards the bus stop. I saw the band. I saw you. I know I just walked past you without saying anything to you. It's not because I didn't want to talk to you, I mean I really want to, but it's because... I don't know if I should. If I hate someone, I wouldn't want that person to talk to me, so... yeah.
But even so, I was still so happy to see you, even if it's just that one second. I don't care if people are saying that you're attending band for the sake of CCA points, or whatever warped reasons they can come up with. Even if it's true, at least you're trying. At least you're putting in effort. And just that alone makes me feel so touched. You always, never fail to reassure the faith I have in you.
If I never had a reason for loving you in the past, then perhaps I've got a couple with me now. I love your sense of responsibility, I love that you're trying.
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Physics today! I thought I did very badly but um well, apparently I've only gotten two questions wrong, so yeah. Haha!
Tomorrow is E-Maths Paper 2 omg! Pray for me!
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WARNING: The following section contains a section that shows tremendous disrespect to old people (but I don't care!).
If there's another kind of old people that I hate besides those that are so egoistic and think it's their right to cut queues and jay-walk while there are still cars coming towards them, then it's got to be the perverted old men.
Remember the paedophile encounter? I kind of realized that he's the only paedophile I've seen. There's one in MSHS and gosh he's a teacher!
This freaking perverted old man keeps acting so crazily when he sees me, advising me to change my name for the most stupid reasons, and... gosh. Doing tons of traumatic stuff to me. And he insults other people too! Like LOL @ saying Nic Tan eats opium cos he's so skinny.
Like seriously, screw off man. I don't know why a dirty old man like him is allowed to stay in a school to teach!
And he's none other than, Han Lao Bei. Yuck, super gross.
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"I feel that the more I wish to be strong
The weaker my heart becomes in inverse proportion"
fated - ayumi hamasaki
Listened to music @ 8:34 PM
