♥ Tuesday, September 30, 2008
"How much more courage do I need
To say with my head held high
'This is the only important thing to me'?"
No way to say - ayumi hamasaki
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I realized that the difference between seeing you and not seeing you is that I would ask myself, "Why are you ignoring me?" when I see you, and "Why did you leave me?" when I don't see you.
Either way, I...
Though it was good that I was always by your side in the past...
I realized that rain is actually a very good and accurate indicator to your mood for that day/moment.
When you're happy, and if it rains, it feels good and cooling and you feel like dancing in the rain, and laughing.
When you're sad, and if it rains, it just makes everything feel worse, and it feels as if the sky is crying for you.
That, is how I feel now.
I don't understand why I still feel such pain when it wasn't something natural that we could see each other often.
But even if we could see each other, it doesn't make any difference. Because we would just behave as if we have never seen each other, pretending not to know each other, bypassing each other.
This is something that I'll need to spend time thinking about, alone.
By the way, there's this certain teacher that I really can't stand anymore. She keeps doing things that catalyze my hatred for her. What's her problem? She keeps picking on certain students, and scolding them, or humiliating them for minor things. Like... I'm so grossed out by her.
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"I want to see you
I want to see you
I don't know what to do
As you are smiling so tenderly only in my memory"
HANABI - ayumi hamasaki
Listened to music @ 8:48 PM
