♥ Tuesday, September 23, 2008
"Why am I so stupid and useless?
I can't even protect the hand I surely once held"
criminal - ayumi hamasaki
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Some things that I wanted to blog about yesterday but totally forgot about, due to whatever reasons, like I think I must be too tired or something...
1. During the 'special' hall assembly yesterday, we were 'educated' on sex and us, men, being 'Protector or Predator' when we grow up. Okay, honestly, the speaker looked like a predator.
And it's boring. And it's lame. And it's draggggggggy. Like oh my God, there's almost absolutely no mention of sex and anything of it in the talk! He's always using analogies that have nothing to do with sex. Snorefest.
Then, towards the end, we were shown a video on abortion. The first five (or was it ten?) minutes or so was a doctor babbling and mumbling to himself. Snorefest. Then.
A video. Of a woman's vagina. Getting sucked by some vacuum machine thing. To suck. Out. Her baby.
Like oh fuck! I swear it was fucking disgusting!
And then there were more clips of aborted babies and they're freaking bloody and omg it's gross... And I kept pulling Joseph's sleeves... and kept screaming. Because it was really...
And there was like one part where the child's head was submerged in some water tank and it's floating around like argh!
And the last part! They showed the aborted baby's eyes. And they zoomed in... and it was staring at you... oh fuck!
I totally lost my appetite, and I really felt like vomiting.
I don't want to watch that video. Ever again.
2. On my way home, I stopped by Shop n' Save to buy something, and while I was queuing, I saw this couple at a few cashiers away.
So they were queuing up. And then they were next to this rack of condoms. The girl nudged the guy, and pointed to the condoms. The guy took one packet and added to his load. And they bought it. Omg. Nothing wrong but I felt it was so funny!
Then somehow we walked on the same way. So I was just following behind them. And I noticed something. The girl was wearing a white t-shirt, and she's wearing a black bra. Like... how provocative.
And I deduce the following conclusions:
a) They must be married, since they appear to be living together.
b) They must be damn rich. Like which married couple would be shopping in their home clothes on a Monday afternoon, if they're not rich? I bet they have some home-jobs or something lah.
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Today, I got my results for the rest of my subjects. Here it goes:
Social Studies - SBQ: 18/25
SEQ - 8/25
Total - 26/50
Combined Humans - SS: 26/50
Lit: 31/50
Total: 57/100
Geography - Physical Geog/Paper 1: 30.5/50
Human Geog/Paper 2: Unknown as of yet
E-Maths - Paper 1: 32.5/80
Paper 2: 37.5/100
Total: 39/100
Science (Chemistry) - Paper 1: 13/20
Paper 3/Written: 19.5/45
Paper 3 Section B: 10/20
Paper 5/Practical: 9/15
Total: 51.5/100 or 26/50 (when combined with Physics, which I haven't gotten the whole marks for)
So yeah.
I'm disappointed in my Chem, seriously. Especially my Paper 3. It's like what the hell... this wrath is pushing me to want to get A1 for my Science.
Maths! I hate Maths to the core and omg it's my only F9 I suppose... like shit I've nothing to say about this stupid subject.
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27 more days.
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What should I do? While reminding myself that I should keep walking forward, I always look back...
It's not your fault or problem yet you are always dragged down with me, along with their insults. If anything, this is the only time when I don't want to be with you. If there should be insults, then please, just let it be me to hear them, and not you as well. I'm not afraid of you hating me because of the insults, because you would have even if there are no insults. I just don't want to see your embarrassed face...
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"You see? I don't ask for you to forgive me some day
But if you were to fight alone now
That's the definite sign for me"
criminal - ayumi hamasaki
I wonder if you're facing this alone, just like me.
Listened to music @ 8:28 PM
