♥ Tuesday, September 02, 2008
"Oh, I'll remember once more that I shouldn't take for granted
The things which I think I'll always have"
Life - ayumi hamasaki
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I've lost something precious forever. I don't wish to lose the memories that come with it. I want to always remember, so that I'll always be reminded that I was once cared for... If I get senile dementia one day... I'll really literally die.
I'm having a good time watching TV from 15 30 to 20 00... omg there are really very good shows in those times.
I've promised myself not to mention about you anymore but I find myself always inevitably mentioning you... but again I don't wish to forget, so...
In life, there are many things that I've gained, and many things that I've lost. Sometimes, I gain because I lost. I think that's the most painful gain... Like gaining memories because you lost someone. I don't want such a gain. I'd rather want you.
But again, some things can't be willed, if they aren't meant to be.
You have taught me that I shouldn't take for granted, the things that I think I'll always have. It's just like how in the past, I thought that I could always be by your side, so I made decisions and did things that upset everyone.
Regret has never come as unexpected and sorrowful as now.
I feel erasing everything that I've written... this isn't the sort of posts that I'm supposed to be posting.
... I don't feel saying any more.
- I'll go on a new journey, though I know that I will still always love you... -
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"I thought for sure I'd just go on walking, laughing, breathing,
And carrying on with the mindless conversations as always"
Life - ayumi hamasaki
Listened to music @ 8:35 PM
