The circumstances when Spencer does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets him mad enough to tell him off, he will not be sorry about it later. He puts a mark in his mind when someone angers him. He keeps track of these marks and when he hits that last mark he will let them know they have gone too far. He is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All his conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. He is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, he has poise.
Spencer will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. He would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, he will show his love by the things he does rather than by the things he says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because he feels his mate should already know. The only exception to this is if he has logically concluded that it is best for his mate to hear him express his love verbally.
Spencer is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to him, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of his sound judgment. He will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. He will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and he will always ask "Is this best for me?"
Spencer tends to write a bit smaller than the average person. When a person's letters are small and tiny, this indicates an ability to focus and concentrate. This character trait is a huge asset in careers like math, science, race car driving, and flying planes. However, if Spencer writes tiny all of the time, he will also display characteristics of someone who is socially introverted. Spencer will often sit on the sideline and watch others get the attention at parties. he might be willing to open up and be warm, but only in small groups or a select group of people. When he is busy working on a project, it is common for all other noises and distractions to just fade away and his ability to focus is incredible. When he says "he didn't hear you", he really means, he didn't hear you.
Spencer will demand respect and will expect others to treat him with honor and dignity. Spencer believes in his ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. He has a lot of pride.
Spencer will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it!
Diplomacy is one of Spencer's best attributes. He has the ability to say what others want to hear. He can have tact with others. He has the ability to state things in such a way as to not offend someone else. Spencer can disagree without being disagreeable.
Because Spencer has sharp needle pointed 'm' and 'n' humps, he has a very sharp mind. He instantly sizes up situations, making instant decisions. He thinks and evaluates circumstances very rapidly. Many people with this type of mind are geniuses, thus he may be seen as highly intelligent. Spencer is often irritated by slow talkers or slow thinkers. If he drives, he gets irritated by slow drivers in the fast lane. He quickly becomes bored when being taught on the level of the slowest student in class. He may be on problem number three when the rest of the class is on problem one. Spencer is curious and very active. In fact, in school he might have been a trouble maker because he thought so much faster than the other kids, he finished his work first, thus having plenty of time on his hands to make trouble!
Spencer's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Spencer that he wasn't a great and beautiful person, and he believed them. Spencer also has a fear that he might fail if he takes large risks. Therefore he resists setting his goals too high, risking failure. He doesn't have the internal confidence that frees him to take risks and chance failure. Spencer is capable of accomplishing much more than he is presently achieving. All this relates to his self-esteem. Spencer's self-concept is artificially low. Spencer will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because he is afraid that if he makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Spencer to plan too far into the future. He kind of takes things on a day to day basis. He may tell you his dreams but he is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud he speaks, look at his actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Spencer is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.
Spencer is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect his ego when he feels hurt. He pokes people harder than he gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.
Something is incomplete in Spencer's life. He feels frustration relating to his physical needs and desires. Somewhere in his life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Spencer's sexual needs.
For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Spencer has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Spencer fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Spencer has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. I would be surprised if Spencer just comes into someone's home and helps himself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn't much fear of getting in trouble here, Spencer finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when he was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful.
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Okay, I agree with some of them, but I disagree with some of them. Ah, it's a fun test. Haha.
Okay, walk forward, don't stop! If I say, "it's okay", then it'll be okay.
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"We were not born to live
Just putting on a front
And hiding a face
Like the dead"
Marionette - ayumi hamasaki
"I remember the summer festivals I had often been to
Where we held fast each others' hand not to be separated
Everything was shining, nothing to fear
And I was pursuing nothing but the beautiful dreams
The passing wind is so soft somehow
That tears are running down my cheeks
Memories are sweet because we passed through the time
However sad now, we can talk about it with a smile some day
There was something I lost while I was growing up
But see, I have my dearest person now
The passing wind was so soft somehow
I will love you at this time tomorrow
Please treasure time, not to regret later, as it's irreplaceable
Please don't forget, however much we pray later, we can never get back this time"
theme of a-nation '03 - ayumi hamasaki
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If there's something I want now, is for us to be like how we were in the past. In that summer, I felt everything - your hands, your voice, your smile...
Even though I don't really know why you just left like that, but it most likely would be my fault, I always thought that there was some kind of a reason.
Wherever you are now, do you still remember whatever that happened in the past? Do the memories sometimes strike you? Do you miss anything?
I really miss the past. I really want to live in the past, again, forever.
I didn't want to let anyone know that I am upset over your depature, so I always smiled, so that I could lie. I'm not saying that there's nothing to be happy about, but as always, departures aren't meant to be celebratory events.
But you left. And you are not going to return anymore. Even if I were to wish and pray very hard, you are still not going to be like you were to me last time. Why? I always keep asking why, but I must have done something wrong to deserve this.
If it pains you to be nice to me, then don't be. You know that too, right?
But I'm really sorry, as in I didn't want other people to be laughing at you too. Every time they start shouting your name, I mean I'm not enjoying that either, and when you're not there, they'll still talk to each other about me. I'm not enjoying that. I didn't want things to be like that too, I didn't want everyone to know, I didn't want any of these to happen... You said it yourself too, that it's not funny. I feel the same way.
What else can I do?
You left on that day, and left footprints on my memories. Although you still asked about me on that last day, beautiful as it appears to be, I know why you're asking. I know why you're searching, I know why you're checking.
That summer was really...
June, July, August. July was the happiest period of time I ever had, despite having unhappiness from band and competitions, I never regretted, because July... I was always by your side. I won't ever be again...
I know you don't remember and care, and couldn't be bothered to, but you don't have to if you don't want to. You know that too, right?
I want that time back, I want you back. But that will never happen.
I don't ask for your love, but really, for that past few months when you were nice to me, like you were to your friends, I was really happy. That was really enough for me, but... It's always me to think of this as simple.
I will try very hard to move on too. Just like you already have.
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"Even now I don't understand
The meaning of growing up
But I wonder
Where that girl or that boy in my memory
Is now walking and aiming for
Daybreak comes quickly these days
The scent of wind has changed
It seems familiar and unfamiliar
It makes my heartbeat quicker
Sweet and sad
We ran through the road to the sea
Screaming with laughter innocently
In the far away summer days
The childhood memories are still in my heart
We never knew
What would be waiting for in our futures
What is left is what we chose
It's not casual at all
If the universe has a will
I think it surely worked on us
Tender and precious
How many times have I sought for something
Found and lost it
Since that time?
But your smile has taught me
That we are now
In the closest place to forever
We ran through the road to the sea
Screaming with laughter innocently
In the far away summer days
How many times have I sought for something
Found and lost it
Since that time?
But your smile has taught me
That we are now
In the closest place to forever"
fairyland - ayumi hamasaki
Take me back to fairyland, please...
