♥ Saturday, August 02, 2008
"One day
When I happened to be a little puzzled
By a new and unfamiliar view
Which I must have chosen
The gentle wind just like you
Blew by me"
Together When... - ayumi hamasaki
...
I made a decision. Because I made this decision, I am forced to walk on a new road. And somehow, this new road that doesn't seem so new, when I was walking along the places that I have walked every day of my life... something changed.
It was so windy today, and the wind kept blowing against my face... telling me this is not an illusion, while it feels so gentle, reminding me of you...
I wish I could be by your side, but if I did, you would be unhappy, right?
I kept wondering today if you would ask about me, if I have ever crossed your mind, if you could remember be...
And...
A part of me regrets deciding not to go for the Paralymics. Don't even mention playing, I didn't even go to watch.
Were people surprised? Did it matter? I already have an answer in my mind.
But despite all the regret and heartbreak... I know that you must be happy there.
And that makes me feel happy too.
Such a lifestyle... I should continue with it.
A life where I wouldn't go to where you are, where I wouldn't be next to you, where I would be alone, thinking over many things.
I am just like your shadow, always by by your side, but I suppose you have never noticed my presence.
But it doesn't matter anymore.
I am so bad at adapting but I will try, as I always had.
I will go on a new journey, though I know that I will always love you...
...
"I want to see you
I want to see you
I don't know what to do
Because you are smiling so tenderly, but only just in my memory"
HANABI - ayumi hamasaki
Listened to music @ 8:49 PM
