♥ Sunday, August 10, 2008
"That day was long ago
Beautiful
And I'll always cherish it"
teens - ayumi hamasaki
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Here's a recap of the weekend.
Saturday, National Day.
So, I woke up at 12 45pm omg it was really quite late for myself, because I know I'm like an early bird.
So anyway, I basically wasted my whole day watching TV! It's like I didn't even study at all... I feel so guilty now... well, I would really have to make all of these wasted time up in Hui Xiong's house for the next few weeks! ^^
Then, I watched the National Day Parade.
Well, I'm not exactly a patriot but watching the NDP did make me feel a little elated to be a Singaporean.
Even though every year is the same thing, with music interludes and a little 'drama' and then the Airplane shows and then the fireworks... it's still nice to see the little effects here and there.
The stage is a floating platform on Marina Bay, so it's like supposed to symbolize Singapore being surrounded by water. Quite cool if you ask me.
Anyway, let's just skip everything else because I felt them to be so mundane.
The most interesting part to me was the fireworks.
I really like watching fireworks.
They are beautiful as an work of art, and even more beautiful as literature symbolism.
The many colors coloring the black night sky, and the transience of their beauty, reminds me of summer, and summer reminds me of...
So anyway I just felt really happy and bittersweet watching the fireworks and... yeah, I ended up smiling, so I suppose it's a good thing.
Okay, so in the afternoon, I went to a saloon studio to cut my hair and I got suaned by the hairdresser!
She asked me, "Why your hair cut until so funny one ah? Got uneven sides lor."
To which I replied, "It was cut by the school barber."
Then she said, "Oh no wonder lah. But at least it's free lah hor."
And then I said, "No I have to pay $5."
Then she gave that omgwtf look and exclaimed, "Huh still must pay $5 ah? Then I rather you come to my saloon and cut, at least we can cut nicer lor." And she laughed.
Haha. Well she's right, though. The school barber sucks with a capital S and I bet they have no barber licscence so they're just some NS barber who only know how to shave heads... oh gosh why were they employed?
And the fact that we have to pay $5 as well... I really study in an illogical school.
Okay, so that concludes Saturday.
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Sunday: Alumni celebration dinner at Sakura in Shaw Plaza.
Started the day normally before going to Marks & Spencer's in the afternoon.
I originally had $32 to spend but I ended up only having $17. Why? Read on.
Before I left the house, my sister, for don't know what stupid reason, ran up to me and pulled my right earpiece.
Then, I realized that because of what she did, no sound could come out of the right earpiece, and I thought it was spoilt.
So I got pissed and started shouting and when I told my father... somehow it became my fault. Never mind, it's expected and just screwed up. So I left with a ear phone that has a multfunctioned side... or so I thought...
So, I was walking at Toa Payoh and I saw this booth selling handphone accesorries, including earphones so I decided to take a look.
Then I saw this quite good one selling for $15 so I though it's okay to buy less Marks & Spencer's stuff for a earphone so I bought it.
But when I started using, something was wrong.
There was still no sound from the right side.
After checking around, I realized the reason for the malfunctioning was because the earjack of the phone has come loose. Because that stupid bitch pulled it.
Omg, I was so pissed at that time, like just felt like killing someone...
I wasted $15... omg!
And because of the fked up thing, I couldn't buy Marks & Spencer's blueberry oat cookies... argh. Bitch.
My phone's forever spoilt now... and I only bought it 5 months ago... =|.
Oh well, life's like that for me.
Anyway, I was suppposed to meet Zhen Cheng at Toa Payoh but since Marks & Spencer's was in Plaza Singapura, which was at Dhoby Gaut, I decided to meet Fredy instead at Boon Keng MRT station.
So I did, and off we went with Chien Teng, Hendrik, Sean and Saw.
So reached there blah blah blah and we started eating!
So anyway we just talked a lot and joked hell lot while eating.
And I played the Question & Answer game with Chien Teng and a few other people but oh well, it really didn't feel as fun as how I have heard of it... maybe it's because of me.
Anyway, later on, Xing Hao asked me if I know what Zhong Ji Mi Ma is. I said yes, and I decided that we should play.
And there's a forfeit to the game, so guess what it was?
We took the paper hotboat with some soup inside, mixed it with...
Wasabi w/ Soy sauce
Ice cream
Some other weird sauces.
Yeah, the penalty is to drink one spoon of that conconotion.
Then, we decided to 'evolve' the game to an elimination one, where the loser will be out of the game, until there's a winner.
So, in the end, it was down to Chang Jun and I and omg they raised the stakes! That one spoon of mixture was now tripled, and all the more I don't want to lose... But I did! Omg and I drank that little bowl of eew-ish conconotion! Argh!
Guzzled liquid down afterwards to get rid of that overriding wasabi taste...
And somehow, my stomach started hurting very badly afterwards.
So bad that I lied on Nicholas Wu's shoulder but I mean I don't understand why he kept pushing me away...
Anyway, it was so bad that I went to the toilet to vomit. Like I have not vommitted for a few years so... yah...
After that, I felt kind of better.
Then, the game evolved even more, where the penalty is no longer eating, but doing guai lan things to strangers, like wearing several watches and asking someone for the time. Nic Chew did just that, and that woman was like giving a super weird and funny face!
Then we went home, and I took 145 with a lot of people, in which we ended up in Toa Payoh bus interchange.
People left to their respective homes, and I walked to a bus stop with Saw and Raymond Gan.
I mean why is it always with Saw. The other time the Honors Band concert also the same lor. Ha... oh well.
So, went home and here I am.
And that concludes Sunday. Tomorrow is a school holiday so yay!
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Anyway...
What do you call this feeling when...
You know that certain things are bound to happen, yet you can't stop them. You really wish to, but you just can't.
Maybe it's because things have reached such a stage where there's no point in explaning, so you just leave things alone... afraid to avaggarate anything...
Still, you wished that you could be left alone, and people would stop speculating about your life, and that person.
You wished that people will stop disturbing and teasing the two of you, so that at least even though you couldn't be together, there wouldn't be anything to increase the hatred.
You feel guilty, you feel like a burden, you feel like it's your fault, and you don't know what to do...
You tried to think of solutions, you tried to do something, you tried to talk so that you can make things clear, but nothing has changed, and perhaps the hatred has deepened...
You start to wonder if you have done the right thing, you start to wonder if it's your fault again.
You silently hope that the hatred was a lie, and that everything would be fine when you see that person again.
But because the reality wasn't what you wanted it to be, you ran away and shed tears alone.
It was like...
You want to touch him but you can't, you want to appear in sight of him but you shouldn't, you know all that, really... but still you couldn't stop yourself from crying.
You really want certain things, but you know you can never.
So you keep walking, with your head held high, and laughing and smiling at the little happy things that happened.
Even if you are sad, you won't be for long.
Because you remember the past memories, and can smile again.
Even if you feel sad that it was over, it won't be for long.
Because you remember the past memories, and realized they were not lies.
So you smiled that it happened.
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Maybe, since the time before I was born,
I've been seeking something unchanging
I found it, lost it and sometimes
There were nights when I hurt someone
If you could have just one wish realized
If you could have just one wish realized
What would you pray?
What would you pray to this sky?
While I strongly wanted something,
I began to give up for some reason or other
I found it, let go of it, and sometimes
There were nights when I hurt myself
If there is something I can offer to you
If there is something I can offer to you
It's my firm, constant affection for you
If you show me just a little smile
It's not worthless that I'm still here, is it?
If you need me just a little
I can still be living here, can't I ?
If you could have just one wish realized
If you could have just one wish realized
What would you pray?
If there is something I can offer to you
If there is something I can offer to you
It's my firm, constant affection for you
Yes, it's my firm, constant affection for you
Here
NEVER EVER - ayumi hamasaki
Listened to music @ 11:21 PM
