♥ Sunday, August 24, 2008
"If the unsetting sun became more like you
Turn your un-freedom to freedom and overcome common sense
Feels like you wanna believe in yourself; you have gotten lost on paths
But hiding in your chest is... a secret paradise"
PARADISE - CAVE
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If there will ever be a day when no one in the worlds wants to believe you, I will always be here. I believe in you, and it's my duty to make you really happy.
Unfortunately, or fortunately, the best thing I can do is to stay away from you. Have I done it correctly? I think I have. At least, that's what I think.
Oh well, no time to think of unhappy and negative things as such. I want to think of you laughing and being happy, because that makes me happy too.
Anyway, Jack wants me to a questionnaire! So I'll do it. I'm supposed to state 20 things about myself!
1. I love MY ALL.
2. MY ALL is also known as horsegrams. Have fun guessing!
3. I love Pink.
4. I hate orange, red, yellow, gray and brown.
5. I love AYU aka ayumi hamasaki aka the Goddess of Music.
6. I also like Koda Kumi, Ai Otsuka, Leah Dizon, Yuna Ito.
7. I also enjoy listening to random songs from Animes. So far, I have got songs from Pokemon, Digimon, Yu-Gi-Oh and Gundam. They have nice anime songs?
8. I like Pokemon! As in the games and anime.
9. I hate to be accussed.
10. I hate it when people try to force their ideas on me.
11. I hate boybands.
12. I hate people who say that they hate gays and hate backstabbers when they enjoy gossiping and spreading rumors like true blue girls and backstabbers.
13. I hate old people who behave as if the world revolves around them just because they're old. Get a life man.
14. I hate rap, metallica... eew.
15. I hate humid weather.
16. I love desserts.
17. I love Marks & Spencer's! My future home will be revolved around it, I swear.
18. I don't get wavered by the words of other people, I mean the non-constructive comments.
19. I don't mind getting bitched about, but I don't like it when the gossip involves someone else other than me.
20. My biggest dream is to be able to stay by MY ALL's side and protect him with everything that I have, even if he doesn't love me the way I do. Just being friends will suffice!
And that's all.
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I want to be by your side. I want to be there to see your dazzling smile. I want to be that person who makes you happy. Have I done it before? I don't know. Nothing is resolved in the end... I feel so empty and upset...
"Far far away, like every other night,
This feeling of "wanting to meet you, yet being unable to" lingers somewhere in my mind
Am I thinking amiss?
Starry sky, do you also think so?
Whenever I find a jellyfish or shooting star,
your name floats into my mind
No matter how imperfect you are
I like you so much
I wonder if you can call this love?
Whenever I try to forget you, I end up loving you even more
Is my wish to be together,
really unattainable?
Whenever I can't find a jellyfish or shooting star
It's as though I'd forget your words
If there was just one thing that I could strongly believe in
then could I simply stay in love with you?
Whenever I find that jellyfish or shooting star,
your name floats into my mind
It doesn’t matter how imperfect you are
I can’t help but love you"
Kurage, Nagareboshi (Jellyfish, Shooting Star) - Ai Otsuka
I feel like that now. Seriously.
「どんなイヤナとこも知ってるのに
あなたの事こんなに好きだよ」
Listened to music @ 8:32 PM
