♥ Tuesday, August 12, 2008
"One day
When I happened to be puzzled a little
By a new and unfamiliar view
Which I must have chosen
A gentle wind just like you
Blew by me"
Together When... - ayumi hamasaki
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La la la...
Today was very cold, and very windy. But I mean the morning was super humid but besides that, today was really cold and windy. Why is there wind today? Why does it feel so nostalgic? I don't know...
Anyway, GEP was cancelled cos James Peh was on MC so yeah can go home early.
And Mr. Chia come to school today in his army uniform which was just LOL. Seriously, it's ownage.
Um, the express Chinese O' Levels results were released today and only two people in my class got an A. Congratulations to Jonathan and Christopher! The rest must work hard and don't give up! I need to work hard on my HCL too. Haha.
Uh, English was four periods, but it was pretty interesting. Will be quoting some stuff from it today, but I won't credit anything so er, yah.
And then, today is just boring and mundane. Like every day.
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One thing I've come to realize is that whatever may happen, we must keep going on.
I wish that you could understand too, and ignore everything that they say. But if you can't or don't want to, I can't do anything either.
I know that I really don't care about they say but... I know you still do. Maybe it's because they're your friends, maybe it's because you need a reason to hate me... Whatever it is, it doesn't matter anymore, at least to me.
Whatever decision you make, I'll support you, even if it means that you will still and always hate me...
When they start shouting, "Marks & Spencer's!", I walked past them, thinking to myself, "such immature acts are expected"... what were you thinking at that time? Ha, it doesn't really matter, right?
I still feel that tinge of sorrow when you walk past me and ignore me... but hey I guess you do that to almost every other senior too. I'm just normal, maybe hated, like the rest, while some seniors are perhaps more respected to you... haha. Normal... even if I felt that we did so many things together, oh well. Life's such.
I said I would be happy, but it's really hard. I mean, at least I'm still happy when I'm with other people. But... the past scar never heals, but I can't escape the future I can't refuse...
After all, there are the memories. Even if they're all a sham, at least you bothered to act/lie to me. I mean you really could have just not bothered, but you did. That makes me a little happy.
If they're not a sham, then at least I know that the days we spent together were not lies. And I'm proud of that.
We can only keep going forward, right?
I still love you. A lot.
I still remember how you... never mind I don't want people to know. It's like our little secret, right? Even if you don't remember, or choose to forget... haha...
Well, I know I can move forward. I wonder what sort of a movement is this, where I'm moving forward physically, though I still love you...
Maybe I'm not moving forward at all, but it's the best I can do.
In my sad times, I will think of you and our memories, and embrace them.
In my happy times, I will think of you and our memories, and laugh with them.
Life will always be good like that. I will always smile like that.
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"The gestures you casually show me
In our idle conversations
Even if I don't intend to remember
Some part within me...
whoa-whoa oh no no no no
Remember them well, you and me"
STEP you - ayumi hamasaki
"Hey yo"... what beautiful memories...
Listened to music @ 8:35 PM
