♥ Sunday, July 27, 2008
"I leave this song here
Instead of saying good-bye
I hope you will walk on without giving up
Till the time we can meet again"
Replace - ayumi hamasaki
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I won't be sad anymore.
Every day, I get to know of new things, and to realize old things. Honestly, I still believe that perhaps you would be able to remember me and our days and laugh at the fun in them.
But even if you don't, I guess it's okay too.
Because I have never expected you to do anything.
Do you hate me? You care about me? Really, I don't know. It's like different people around me have such different opinions about this whole incident, that... hey, who am I supposed to listen? Except to listen to everything that everyone said and come up with my own conclusion, with support from your words and actions. It's painful and confusing but heck it.
So you will continue on with your life, without me interfering anymore, while I will continue on with my life too, perhaps occasionally asking questions about you.
I won't cry that it was over, but rather, I think I will smile that it happened.
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26th July, 2008.
Maris Stella Alumni Symphonic Band has made History again.
I am so proud to announce that we are the TOP BAND of the Open Division of the Singapore International Band Festival (SIBF), beating the Assumption College Lampang Symphonic Band from Thailand, Tom Lee Hong Kong Youth Neowinds Orchestra from Hong Kong and Anglo-Chinese School Independent Symphonic Band!!!
This whole month of July has been so hectic and busy that I feel asleep on the bus to school every morning (something I have never done before)!!!
Anyway, I remember reaching the school at um 2pm and started to slack and lame around first before starting the practice.
Mr. Lin came and rehearsed Air with us, and I could tell he was kind of apprehensive about Air because I mean we only sightread that piece like the previous night? And he also mentioned something about our disappointing attitude and discipline... which was kind of depressing but oh well.
Then had one hour of sectionals where I finally cleared section S & T of Hymn to the Sun!
Then had full band with Mr. Chiang and then there was dinner and off we go!
Ever since I know that we are into the Finals, I always thought that we would definitely get the 4th place because the other bands were really just that good.
So at the Esplanade, when we were at the Lobby getting our passes and all... the nostalgia ran through my whole body and immediately I just remembered everything that happened on the 15th April all over again.
So, it was just a little sad.
Then, we went into the holding room with the Hong Kong band, and behold, the holding room was the room where the waterbottle drama happened... nostalgia, all over again.
So much so that I could only walk out of the room and linger around the corridor...
Thankfully, I had Garrett, Jia Wei and Saw to talk to get rid of that negative feeling.
So gradually, that nostalgia faded away as I reminded myself that I should be happy and grateful for everything that happened. I'm here for a competition! Not to emo over things that I shouldn't emo over!
And then, as if to reward me for such a thinking, the interesting things started happening...
We took the cargo lift with our instruments to go into the tuning room. Then the lift was jam-packed with tons of people and I was so apprehensive of entering... that when I did, this helper girl started laughing and I mean it was kind of embarrassing, I suppose...
And then we tuned and all that, and it was our turn to compete.
While waiting at the backstage and all, I managed to listen to ACS(I)'s playing and omg I was so stunned... cos they really sounded so good and my thought of us getting 4th was like reaffirmed.
But oh well, heck it, I thought, I should just playing as per normal.
Sunshine Breeze March was pretty good, I think it gave the audience a happy and poppy start to our performance.
Then it was Chosen. When Douglas went on with his solo, I seriously thought that he improved so much from Thursday... however, this song had minor screw ups here and there but who cares? We are still TOP BAND!!!
Then it was my favorite song from this list, Air from the Celtic Folk Song Suite. It was like we let the audience listen to this very gentle and dreamy song... reminds me of fairies, waterfalls, rainbows and nostalgia...
Finally, it was Hymn to the Sun the last song. Suddenly, the Hymn was like our GREATEST HIT thing or something because I really remember playing this song so often...
Okay after we were done, we went back to the holding room, where that same girl in the left was opening the door for us, and then when she saw me, she was like, "xing ku ni men le!!!" in her super dolly-girlish voice which I thought was so cute! So anyway I just laughed and thanked her.
Then, Xing Hao was like saying that he wanted to take a photo with her so I just tagged along. And after he was done, the girl was like asking me if I want to take photos too... like do I have a jealous face? Cos I HONESTLY am not jealous, seeing as how I will never be interested.
But anyway, I just took photos for the fun of it and I did something pretty bad but trust me it wasn't intentional! If you want to know, just ask me cos it's too embarrassing to put it here.
Then after that, Xing Hao said he wanted her number... so I made a deal/dare with him and ha, you'll know more soon.
So when went to the choir gallery to listen for the results, I saw her again and I told her, 'my friend wants your number' and omg Xing Hao asked for her number!
Then she ran to where he sat later on and passed him his phone which made everyone go like "oooo"!
Okay, back to SIBF.
Everyone was so scared and when the emcee was about to announce the fourth place, I was like expecting him to say, 'Maris...' but NO! The fourth place was like the Thailand band and then I was so happy cos that means we are third!
Then the third band was announced... I was expecting the emcee to say, "Maris..." but NO! He said the HK band and everyone was like WTFOMGBBQ?! at our amazing feat of 2nd place...
But somehow I was hoping for top band, so I was like squeezing Nic Wu's hands... and when the emcee announced 2nd, I really could envision him saying 'Maris...' but NO! He said ACS(I) which means that...
WE ARE TOP BAND!!!
I remembered we all started jumping and screaming... and I bet there are people who thought we were ACS(I) in which it's so weird to why we're screaming...
BUT WHATEVER! We are MARIS STELLA SYMPHONIC BAND ALUMNI and WE ARE TOP BAND!!!
And we sang the school song and the emcee was like giving that impatient body language but HECK IT!
I heard that Jia Wei and Saw and some others were like screaming and running around the holding room area and the security guard scolded them... lol.
So, with highness and happiness... Xing Hao hugged Evelyn! Xing Hao, you are a THREE-TIMER.
And honestly, doing all that with her doesn't prove me anything cos I took a photo with Evelyn too but does it mean I'm straight? No, I'm still gay!
So HA you are still a Three-timer.
Anyway, on our back to school, we saw the Assumption College and they were so friendly! They kept saying that we played very well and did that thumbs-up things... thank you!
Then, on the bus, we saw them again!
Then I did this sawadikap thing to one of the girls and she did it back to me. Oh yeah.
Anyway, went back to school and camwhored and just went crazy.
Wanted to eat with the others but was so tired and it was so late (like 12 45...) so I just went home.
And here I am.
What I want:
1) my photo with Evelyn!
2) photos taken at the band room!
I want to thank...
1) Mr. Chiang for really everything. Oh by the way, congratulations for your triple joy this year!
2) Mr. Lin for all the tuning issues and the BALL theory... I think we really did that ball thing!
3) Fredy. Because I love you. No I'm kidding, it's because you're Fredy.
4) Loo Kit, Ronny and Clement. I wouldn't know of a lot of things if not for you guys! Thank you!
5) Everyone else. We made that miracle, together.
So, yeah, 26th July, 2008. Unforgettable day.
And uh-uh-uh, we got the $10k!
=)
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"I wanted to say 'I love you'
But I couldn't say 'I love you'
I felt that it was my biggest lie
And the truth"
Together When... - ayumi hamasaki
I have never said, "I love you" to you before... maybe except for the other time when I said, "daisukidayo" but heck you don't know what it meant.
Perhaps it was good this way.
Listened to music @ 8:25 PM
