♥ Friday, July 25, 2008
"We ran through the road to the sea
Screaming with laughter innocently
In the far away summer days"
fairyland - ayumi hamasaki
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This summer was the most beautiful summer that I ever had. By summer, I'm taking all the months that are considered summer in different countries, and have personally decided summer to be between May and July.
Yes, I felt that I had a lot of fun this summer. It makes me so exhilarated whenever I remember the happy and unhappy times that I had with him during these few months.
Because this summer was too beautiful, I don't wish to ruin it by being sad because it was over, or because I realized something else.
So, I wish to be happy and grateful for this summer, and all the events and memories that I have with him.
Even if these days might have been all lies, even if at the end of everything, he still hates me so much, even if I couldn't get to see him anymore...
At least I know what we did, and how happy we were, or at least I was.
Because of that, I don't think I can bring myself to be sad anymore. It's time to celebrate the beautiful memories of this summer!
And I will always love you until that day when my feelings fade away. And I will always be somewhere near you, though I hope you wouldn't know. And I will look at you from somewhere far, far away, and I hope you would never notice.
I know that you would be so much happier now. No one will be there to 'block' your view, no one will be there to make others speculate and humiliate you.
You really don't have to put up with anymore of these anymore.
This Saturday will be the start of my total disappearance from main band. Finally I can wake up at 9am on Saturday mornings!
But all of you can think that I'm very sad or emo but really, I'm not. Perhaps I might sometimes be but still, I know I'm happy to have the memories.
The memories with him.
This summer may have ended, but my love for you, and the memories from this summer, will not end.
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"Today was very sad, and even if I were to cry tomorrow, someday the time will come that I can laugh and remember the times we had together."
SEASONS - ayumi hamasaki
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Anyway, this week has just been hectic! Except for Tuesday, I have been returning at 10-12pm/am this whole week!
SIBF semi-finals was held yesterday and Maris Stella Alumni got its first silver. Sounds disappointing? Well sort of, since we're just 0.87% from a Gold.
But we're one of the Top 4 bands of the Open division, which means that we're into the Finals tomorrow! And again, finally, after tomorrow, I can take a good rest and study.
I think we have really shown everyone that we're on par with the overseas band.
Busy, busy, busy!
I hope I don't fall sick after all these because I really need to study.
And we're going to the Esplanade for the Finals! Ah, the Esplanade, the place of fond memories on the 15th April...
I'm really happy at everything!
Life's good!
Listened to music @ 1:07 PM
