♥ Friday, June 13, 2008
"So 1.2.3.4 one by one
1.2 STEP you in this way
I want to know you well"
STEP you - ayumi hamasaki
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There are a lot of issues in our lives where we can't make a decision ourselves. Therefore, we often decide based on other people's opinions and their stories.
But... if we allow others to decide for us, no matter what the outcome of the decision is, we will come to regret it.
I think that's really true.
Two different people told me two totally different sides of an incident. I asked myself, "What should I do now? Who should I believe?"
I really thought about this for like half a day before I finally knew what to do.
I will believe in him.
I believe what I see and what he does to me. The unhappy moments were when he dislikes me and the happy moments were when things were better.
I guess sometimes things aren't that deep after all. I love to analyze every single thing and find out the hidden nuance inside everything but this time... it feels different.
It feels like I should perceive things in a different manner... and just look at things as they are.
Also, even if other people ask you to treat someone better, you wouldn't be treat that person nicely to such an extent. Moreover he treats me nicely when usually not many people are around so what's there to prove?
Sometimes I feel that I think too much.
I believe in him. I don't even think this is deluding myself or whatever. Certain things have happened and I can't look at them as being lies because it doesn't feel like anything like a lie at that moment, at the thoughts of it afterwards.
Therefore, I am happy again.
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"'Where are you, what are you doing around this time?'
Right after I thought of such things
Even for just a moment,
I wanted you to remember me"
STEP you - ayumi hamasaki
Listened to music @ 8:01 AM
