♥ Monday, May 05, 2008
I feel so messed up now.
I don't know what to do now.
They say curiosity kills the cat. How true?
I wanted to know more and I found out the truth, and I don't dare to face it.
I feel like running away... I feel like escaping.
Why?
Does he ever spare a thought for my feelings?
Why does he even bother treating me nicely when... he's going to stop them?
He leaves me hanging on a thread...
I've sort of confirmed my suspicions and conclusions that he has blocked me from MSN again...
And I don't know why.
He doesn't tell me anything. He never tells me anything.
He never told me how he felt about this whole thing. I don't even know if he hates me now.
Did I do something wrong? Was it such a crime that he needed to block me again...?
... I feel so hopeless now. I sincerely wish that he will call me or find me on Wednesday. I feel that we need to thrash things out but again, how much of a reality is that?
I'm back on Madonna again. Hard Candy is really good! And there's this song in there that's just surprisingly deep and heart-wrenching.
“There’s something you should know
Angels that surround my heart
Are telling me to let you go
Over and over you’re pulling me back to the floor
I should just walk away. I keep on coming back for more”
Devil Wouldn't Recognize You - Madonna
How true. How apt.
Listened to music @ 9:14 PM
