♥ Monday, April 21, 2008
Why is every day getting from bad to worse?
... The trip to school was horrible.
"Together When..." was playing and he just appeared in my mind... I thought of what we did on the 15th April... and I started crying. Not as in those dramatic crying but I felt my eyes getting warm... and tears just dropping down my face... very slowly...
Because of that, I got a flu for the rest of the day.
... I tried to avoid seeing him by getting the Band Room key from Mrs Tey to get my USB cable and to just stone there... But when I went out to buy something, I saw him.
When I went back to class, I saw him near my corridor.
The more I don't want to see him, the more I see him... is this fated?
I don't like to make my life seem as though it's controlled by fate but sometimes, it's things like this that just make me feel very weird and off-guard...
Then during lunch, Chang Jun asked me to follow him to the Primary School Canteen for lunch... I just followed out of curiosity... and omg I saw him and his friends there. And then they were like diaoing me... and keep looking at my direction... what crime have I committed? I'm now super worried that he's pissed off with me because he thinks that I am stalking him... I'm not!
The worst thing is Christopher tore his leg tissue so my classroom's gonna be switched with 3I... which is on the same level and corridor as his class! What if he thinks that I'm trying to stalk him again?
... I'm worried... I'm scared of being misunderstood...
I don't want to see him, I don't want to feel upset and hurt... I just want to be with myself for a while...
Am I still in love with him? I don't know, my mind is in a whirl...
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Listened to music @ 9:23 PM
