♥ Wednesday, April 02, 2008
I'm feeling vexed and perplexed now.
I think I really suck... and can do nothing good at all. Like, I don't think I've blogged about this, but my sister threatens me with the knife whenever I ask her to stop using the com and pass it to me. I think it's kind of funny cos I want to die too but I don't dare to. Weird?
Mark is making me feel funny again... sometimes I think he really hates me but sometimes I think things are not that bad... Actually I wonder how he would react if someone were to tell him my feelings and thoughts... I mean he's most probably going to laugh it off and treat it as a joke... that's how he is right.
I hate this March-April period. I feel the most stress and pressure and I feel like they can break anytime... What if I were to have a major breakdown like last year? Please don't be surprised... because it's meant to happen.
I just want to escape... to you.
The way you look when you ask me about what I'm saying...
The way you call my name and ask for a plaster (sorry I didn't have one!)...
The way you exude such an endless freedom...
The way you never fail to care about someone... when no one else believes it...
The way you speak to Justin Yap today...
The way you always bring my hopes high... then smash it the next second/day...
Despite all the wrongs that people think you have, you have the Right Heart. Because of that, you can do everything and anything... as long as you want to... as long as you believe...
Listened to music @ 10:48 PM
