♥ Sunday, March 16, 2008
Hi. Sorry for the emo post(s) yesterday night... I am so selfish. I only thought about my own suffering that I forgot about other people and the happy things that do go on in my life... so let's talk about that!
The metronome cum tuners came in yesterday during band. Then Mr Chiang was explaining the thing while I was looking for a chair. Then like when I finally found one and was ready to sit down, he took the metronome that he was holding and said that one was for me. I was like O.o and asked him if it's because he dropped it lol. Then he said it's mine because it's... PINK like omg it's so spontaneous and sudden... didn't expect that Mr Chiang would specially order a PINK one for me... I'm so touched *tears* T_T!!! Thank you, Mr Chiang! Now like all the people who feel indebted to him in a way or another, I am indebted to Mr Chiang too! Haha.
How long
Have we spent time together ?
How far
Have we advanced together ?
The sparkling crystals
We have left behind
Are now shining proudly here
Though they may not be perfect
Honestly
I can't say
That it was all fun and joyful
But always, I wasn't alone
* I want to show you a dream
I hope you will have
A never-ending and lasting dream
This is my wish
** I want to protect you
Whatever may happen
I'll go on protecting you
With all my might
Even now, I can say definitely
That I don't have a regret
We have always fought it out
With all our might
Honestly
I had some hard nights
And the days I felt unbearable
But always, I wasn't alone
I see your smile
So dear and dazzling
I'm living every day
To see the smile
I feel your love
Strong and warm
I'm feeling the selfless love
With all my senses
* (repeat)
** (repeat)
MY ALL - ayumi hamasaki
... Sigh. MY ALL, you will always be in my heart. But from tomorrow onwards, I shall let the whole world know that I don't love you at all. Yes, it's going to be a lie for now but so what? As long as you will be ever free... I don't care at all. The only person who will know that I still love you like anything is just going to me, and maybe a few other people. But whatever it is, I am just going to work towards one goal now: to be your friend. It is hard but um, it can't be that hard. I can do it! That means that I will try not to treat you specially anymore and that... I will make you and all your friends and percussion members believe that I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH YOU.
We started to walk calmly and determinedly
With the same scar in our hearts
With our backs to each other
Without looking back
We believed
We found out one unchanged thing
But we felt it was changing
And took a step back
Yet another step back afterwards
So as not to be hurt
* I wanted to say "Thank you"
I couldn't say "Thank you"
Because it's like "Good-bye for ever"
And too sad
** Maybe I shall be born again to myself some day
And start a journey to seek for you
One day
When I happened to be puzzled a little
By a new and unfamiliar view
Which I must have chosen
The gentle wind just like you
Blew by me
*** I wanted to say "I love you"
I couldn't say "I love you"
But I feel it was both my biggest lie
And the truth
** (repeat)
*(repeat)
***(repeat)
Even if I'm born again to someone else
I'll start a journey to seek for you
Together When... - ayumi hamasaki
I remember 2007's Band Camp. I remember the outing on Friday. I remember every single second that I spent with you... I remember everything...
M Y
A LL
R ight now, at this time, should be
K icked out from my life.
~
Tomorrow is another day, so I shall await for the next sunrise.
Listened to music @ 10:54 PM
