Well, an update! Lol. I bought Kuu's Kingdom on Thursday (or was it Wednesday?) and it was NC-16 OMG lol but anyway I just bought it with my uniform so it's like... who really cares about those ratings?
Which makes me wonder: is the Singapore Censors Board efficient?
I mean, let's look at this shall we? Kuu's BEST ~second session~ was rated M-18 because of the scene in her Candy PV where she supposedly 'dances with a sword under her pants'. And then Kingdom is rated NC-16 because of a lesbian kiss in the video for BUT... and the gay kiss in the PV for Ima sugu hoshii in BEST ~ss~ wasn't even mentioned by the SCB? What the hell? And the worst thing! Black Cherry was rated PG but it had like Kuu's sickest PV ever: JUICY.
I mean, okay the SCB is weird.
Nuances like dancing with a sword under your pants is offensive and horny or something while watching a woman having lustful looks at men wasn't mentioned as a reason? And having a video where the singer inserts a bottle into her ass (well she didn't really do it, just an optical illusion) and she touches a guy's crotch where the BULGE is shown is rated PG???
SCB, please.
Anyway, yesterday was band day and I felt frustrated and irritated during sectionals for obvious reasons... and I felt sleepy like I felt like just leaving the whole place!
But when full band started, lol it was a different story.
And XXXX is so cute today... please don't make Wy Ton 'deliver' the mallets to you next time! LOL
And I'm going to learn DOTA from now ons! It's the only way that I can find true happiness (I'm using DOTA as platform)!
Anyway, we were so evil too! Like Mrs. Tey had some illness which was damn bad and we got this Get Well card for her and you could see the jealous look on Ms. Lee's face cos she was asked to get markers and walking around the school to get us to sign on the card! Lol, and we suggested her to slash her wrists or something so that we can do something similar for her! Haha, retarded.
XXXX is stupid, XXXX is retarded, XXXX is innocent, XXXX is vulnerable. That's why I love XXXX!
~Oodles of joy~
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Well, I wanted to do an analysis of one of Ayu's songs like a long long long time ago so after much procacsination, here it is (I know I spelled procacsination wrongly, guide me!)!
~fairyland~
Even now I don't understand
The meaning of growing up
But I wonder
Where that girl or that boy in my memory
Is now walking and aiming for
Daybreak comes quickly these days
The scent of wind has changed
It seems familiar and unfamiliar
It makes my heartbeat quicker
Sweet and sad
* We ran through the road to the sea
Screaming with laughter innocently
In the far away summer days
The childhood memories are still in my heart
We never knew
What would be waiting for in our futures
What is left is what we chose
It's not casual at all
If the universe has a will
I think it surely worked on us
Tender and precious
**How many times have I sought for something
Found and lost it
Since that time?
***But your smile has taught me
That we are now
In the closest place to forever
* (repeat)
** (repeat)
*** (repeat)
Okay bad copying and pasting but here it goes...
Why does Ayu name it fairyland? There must be a time somewhere when everyone believed in fairies, where they are regarded as spirits of beauty and joy... but at an era like now, with scientific advances and what have you, do fairies still exist as they are? They are probably still at the back of our heads, buried under our layers of memories... Fairies don't really exist, do they? Perhaps that is why Ayu named this song fairyland... to symbolize a place that never existed... a place that was created to satisfy our innocent dreams back then...
"Even now I don't understand
The meaning of growing up"
Ah, yes, there are so many times when I thought that I was still too immature to face this world, and that if I could have that most precious person to be by my side as I take on this challenge, surely I would be able to do it. But I wonder where that far away dream had gone to...
"But I wonder
Where that girl or that boy in my memory
Is now walking and aiming for"
And this was what I was talking about a few posts back. People whom I've met and had great connections to, like my primary school classmates... where have they gone to? Sometimes I think reality is cruel that we can only know someone for that few years before we lose complete touch with them... our hearts do not forget like that. I wish to see you.
"Daybreak comes quickly these days
The scent of wind has changed"
Lol Chien Teng told me my style of talking has changed for the past two years. Changes, innate, on purpose, or do they come about with circumstances? Honestly, there were times when I wished to change and times when I wished I had never. It's hard to judge if you are going to be a good or bad person in the end, but when you reach your end, I think you'll know what your life had all been about. The days are ending soon... and 24 hours seem so much shorter...
"It seems familiar and unfamiliar
It makes my heartbeat quicker
Sweet and sad"
What could be that few things that make us have such a feeling? Such a... bittersweet feeling? My first thought was humans and like how true is that. Someone whom you know a few years back, is he the same now? You know him, but you don't know him. And you want to know more about him now... and it's bittersweet.
"We ran through the road to the sea
Screaming with laughter innocently
In the far away summer days"
I believe this is to everyone's standard the definition of 'happiness'. To be with your most beloved is of course a cause for celebration but how many do get such a... fairytale ending? Please think about it and you'll know that no one is being cynical but reality is as such. I want to run through the road to the sea and scream with innocent laugher with my Dearest too but as Ayu has said/wrote/sung,... those days were 'far away'...
"The childhood memories are still in my heart
We never knew
What would be waiting for in our futures"
Memories... while we dispose some so easily, there are those that we clung so dearly to our hearts, as if our lives depended on such memories. To be honest, I've experienced such a time, where the world looks bleak and it was your memories with certain people that keep you going on.
"What is left is what we chose
It's not casual at all"
Isn't it ironic? At the starting, when we decided that "this is what we want", we never get it. Yes, what we get was always bad and not to our liking but such people gave up too early. After many tries, we still get what we chose. Yes, Ayu is telling us, "don't give up!"
"If the universe has a will
I think it surely worked on us
Tender and precious"
What was this 'will' that Ayu was talking about? Fate? The fact that anyone here can meet someone else and get acquainted is fate already... moreover people who fall in love with each other? Love is 'tender and precious'...
"How many times have I sought for something
Found and lost it
Since that time?"
I said to myself before that even if I were to forget everything in this world, there will be people whom I will NEVER EVER forget for the rest of my life. But in any case, is it just luck that when we lose someone we love, and he comes back? I believe what Ayu, and I, want to say is that... fate is as such. If it's someone whom you are meant to be, no matter how many times the two of you are separated by wrath, fear and hatred, you'll be back together --- once again.
"But your smile has taught me
That we are now
In the closest place to forever"
The smiles of our closest ones are so sweet... that 'paradise' that we have defined with our own standards... where is it? Is it HEAVEN that Ayu was talking about about being the 'closest place to forever'?
Now, I am freaking lazy so please go to dailymotion.com or veoh.com to search for the PV of fairyland... cos it's just as deep as the lyrics.
Anyway, the video shows Ayu having a good time with her friends but at the middle, their hut burns down and Ayu looks in sadness.
Why?
As she repeats
"We ran through the road to the sea
Screaming with laughter innocently
In the far away summer days"
another time in the song, everything quietens down. is this like waking up from a dream... the dream that no one wants to awaken from?
Yes, at the end of the PV, a photo of Ayu and her friends were shown, and they were burned/destroyed/tarnished.
The burning of the photo, the burning of memories, the burning of everything... is it really okay with you to forget all the people whom you have met?
Isn't this fantastic? Because this is Literature.
