♥ Friday, March 14, 2008
Today, I planned to watch Sky of Love by myself... but hey I saw Fredy and gang. Apparently, they were having some outing thing so lol I just joined lor. Quite a fruitful day I guess...
We went to eat at ichiban sushi for lunch then went to the arcade. After that, we watched 10, 000 BC and I must say... it's quite a good movie with a lot of lame stuff to joke about. Then we went to Fish&Co. where we met Justin Yap and Wei Qi. Haha Wei Qi said that Fredy has "beautiful eyes" that are like "Barbie Doll" and he is the "prettiest boy" she has ever seen. HAHA. Which reminds me, after we went out from Cathay, a group of girls walked past (allegedly) Fredy and then I heard them running off and saying, "I thought it was a girl leh!" Like major lol.
So...
The Happy Things:
Eating and bonding with everyone there. And playing Para Para at the arcade. That was retarded but oh well.
The Sad Things:
The four writings of mine that I am going to post can't even fully describe half of the morose that I felt.
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CAROUSEL
'Good-bye' I couldn't even say that clearly
I felt that I had given too much while you
Just stand there breaking my heart with your silence
I woke up in perspiration calling
Your name as though you were just there by my side
After the rain
I saw a rainbow in the sky
After you appeared
From the lights from the sky
A gentle wind like you blew past
Taking my smile away
I remember depending on you to stay
Alive and wishing that you would be happy
I am sometimes seized with too much fear because
Your beauty is too overwhelming
Memories are so nostalgic, aren't they?
The scars that I
Have left on your heart shall hurt but
While you grieve
My heart is bleeding
So much more but I hid it with
A fake smile
How is the future without you like?
Your words leave a pain that
I shall never forget...
But
Whatever that happens to you
Whatever mood you may be in
I'll always accept you...
After the rain
I saw a rainbow in the sky
After you appeared
From the lights from the sky
A gentle wind like you blew past
Taking my smile away
~
Written on the 10th of March, 2008.
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CAROUSEL ~episode II~
Sometimes I wonder to myself
How long will it be before
You accept me?
I promised to protect you
At the cost of everything
But in the end it was I
Who hurt you the most... why?
Why am I so powerless and stupid?
I can't even protect the hand that
I once surely held
Falling in love with someone
Doesn't mean to possess him
If at the expense of your smile
You sacrificed his smile...
How would you ever be happy?
I've learned that... too late
I would be so fierce towards
People who have hurt you
But in the end you chose them
Over me... why?
Why am I so fragile and useless?
I can't even save your heart from your
Casual manners
When you have seen him in smiles
Because you gave him up
Naturally you would be smiling too
You sacrificed yourself
Without letting him know...
That, is true love
Falling in love with someone
Doesn't mean to possess him
If at the expense of your smile
You sacrificed his smile...
How would you ever be happy?
I've learned that... too late
When you have seen him in smiles
Because you gave him up
Naturally you would be smiling too
You sacrificed yourself
Without letting him know...
That, is true love
I have sometimes wondered
How long would it be before
You accept me?
~
Written on the 11th March, 2008.
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CAROUSEL ~overture~
Fireworks are a momentary beauty -
Nostalgic and forlorn
Just like you
They mesmerize me with their
Immense beauty
I want to forget but I can't forget
It appears that the more
I wish to
Forget the more it clings onto
My memories...
I might have known too soon
The terrible rebound after happiness
If one day
You would to leave me behind
I won't cry
Because I know you wouldn't
Want to see me in morose
Because of you
That's why I'm laughing now
Supposing that words can distort what we mean
And cause misunderstandings
Then I wish
That I would lose my voice and
Give you freedom
Why can't humans live as
They wish? Perhaps we desire too much...
Whenever
I am sad and feel hopeless
I have a
Habit of saying "I'm okay."
The smile you saw at that time
Was a big lie
That's why I'm crying now
Please tell me that
You're truly happy
With your usual smile
In this way
I would have left
Without regrets
If one day
You would to leave me behind
I won't cry
Because I know you wouldn't
Want to see me in morose
Because of you
That's why I'm laughing now
Whenever
I am sad and feel hopeless
I have a
Habit of saying "I'm okay."
The smile you saw at that time
Was a big lie
That's why I'm crying now
A gentle wind like you blew past
After you had left.
I faked a feeble smile
Putting on a bold front.
But...
I am back to you
After a long ride.
~
Written on the 11th of March, 2008.
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Beloved
How nice would it be
If we could keep
Our most precious
Treasures with us
And throw away the rest...
But reality is so cruel...
It is just as well
Since I will still
By your side...
Let's go to that place together
Where all of your scars and wounds
Will heal and disappear
If only you would believe me...
If only you would walk with me...
Humans are such that
We keep wanting
Despite all that
We had with us
And we lost sight of
Our Dearest along the way...
What can you do to
The person who loves
You the most?
Let's go to that place together
Where all of your tears and fears
Will fade and disappear
Do you see the rising sun?
That is the tomorrow there...
Let's go to that place together
Where I can be with you until
The end of time...
Let's go to that place together
Where all of your scars and wounds
Will heal and disappear
If only you would believe me...
If only you would walk with me...
Let's go to that place together
Where all of your tears and fears
Will fade and disappear
Do you see the rising sun?
That is the tomorrow there...
Let's go to that place together
Where all of your scars and wounds
Will heal and disappear
You have believed me...
You have walked with me...
Do you see that rainbow?
Ah - it has been tiring
We took the long way
And finally got to there...
~
Written on the 13th of March, 2008.
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All words by me. All writings for M. If you have a melody to sing to all these four writings, please let me know haha. If you find that they suck, please tell me. If you like them, please tell me. If you think they're too sad... well I've not written a happy song for a month already.
Listened to music @ 11:30 PM
