♥ Sunday, February 03, 2008
And the guilt still lingers in me...
As the weather gets colder throughout today... I just got sadder.
Sometimes, some situations and conditions and endings are so surreal that you just can't accept it... But oh well. Nothing beats knowing that you have given your all! =|
Oh by the way.
You know =) means happy and =( means sad? There are many other official variations but let's not go to there for now.
I made a new one for myself. Maybe it's not new and someone else's using it but er. Okay nevermind.
=| means happy yet sad... and like don't know what to do that kind of feeling.
So anyway, I'm having a tough time deciding on something... I really don't know. Yeah, it's like I'm sandwiched!!! Bitches don't have the best lives... =|
So, to express my words better... A song. (Strange how I can find an Ayu song for EVERYTHING)
If we tell too much
The truth becomes blurred
Because words are sometimes so powerless
And disturb our thoughts
You see? Please don't ask me
You see? If I was right
Yes, I go
Whatever unreasonable place may be waiting for me
And even if it may sound sadly to your heart
That I'll just have to remain myself
The road I chose when I was young
Was that of no turning back
That was the first and the last resolution
The future was yelling in the distance
You see? My past self of that day
You see? Is nodding behind me
Yes, I go
I walk on with my chin up without looking back nor running away
Some day you will understand
That I'll just have to remain myself
The wind is blowing strongly against me
The cold is piercing me unusually
Now I reach out straight and forward
With my hand numbed with freezing cold
Yes, I go
Whatever unreasonable place may be waiting for me
I must accept myself
That I'll just have to remain myself
Listened to music @ 9:12 PM
