♥ Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Argh.My MSN is unable to work cos they said my internet browser can't work or something... then why am I able to blog? Haha. I did a draft of a post i wanted to post yesterday but I knew just now that I deleted it =.= And by the way, if anyone wishes to or has already tried to contact me on my phone through calling/sms... don't bother. My sister borrowed my phone and she lost it. Argh.
Yes, a series of bad things... and there's more.
Well, today I witnessed another classic example of how my mother is biased. So like she cooked some tuna thing for her own consumption in the mornings... and she told me, "I didn't cook for you to eat ah. And you don't just eat it like that and eat everything!"
Well, I used a bread, IIRC. And um, nevermind.
So yeah, then my brother came home and the first thing he did was...
Take a spoon and ate a few mouthfuls of the tuna with comments like "Oh it's so bad", "No mayo? No wonder why it sucks lah"... my mother saw and heard everything and she was like so... nonchalant? I don't know, she was still chatting away with him after that. Despite him calling her a 'stupid idiot' and what not.
Oh wait, he does that all the time.
Sometimes, I get envious, indefinitely. Well, to my mother, I guess my brother means the world to him. Maybe I take Australia, or Antarctica. So anyway, he doesn't really appreciate it. He calls my mother things like "stupid idiot", "stupid", a "bitch" and so on. Honestly, if I had someone to treat me as the world, I wouldn't be so unappreciative towards him. Maybe it's because I'm deprived in my own perception of love that I am so eager to fall in love with other people, so that I would know how love feels like, so that I can just be happy. But... it's unrequited love that ends up having the worst endings ever and yah... heartbreaks. And I'm an idiot, in a sense, because I still believe in love. There are somethings that I just keep believing and thinking that ONE DAY, it'll be like how I dreamed of it... naive and foolish, apparently.
But then again, don't take too much notice of what I've said. The kids in Africa need more attention than me!
Anyway, looking forward for my appointment with Mrs. Patricia Kong tomorrow! Yes, I'm taking counseling... maybe not since I'm just going there to take a personality test. I love doing such things! Haha.
"Supposing that I am the world to someone, would I have appreciated that person? Humans... losing sight of the dearest things they have by their sides... and aiming for what seems to be impossible... losing their dearest on their path to their satisfaction."
I'm satisfied. To be secretly in love with you.
Listened to music @ 10:24 PM
