♥ Thursday, January 31, 2008
Today was a bad day.
I don't know if I said this before, but my class is a notorious class. Maybe you have heard of teachers bitching about certain things in that place they call the Staff Room. Rest assured, their hot topic for this whole week was no doubt, 4I.
Let's start with Monday.
On Monday, a group of people ordered MacDonalds delivery during Physics Practical.
Of course, it just is an act of ordering fast food... how wrong could it be?
Not when the whole world knows that you need to use a handphone to call Macs. And you're a student in a school which doesn't allow you to use handphones. And you're using what you're not supposed to. It's like having sex when you're underage.
So, something happened (in which I know what but I shan't disclose it here) and the teachers know about it. I heard people slammed DK's door in his face or something. I think that's pathetic. It's like you're fighting a war you can't win (great I know the talk on determination and whatsoever but still...).
So, those people who ordered Macs were suspended from class for a day (yes one day is too short... I know...). You might think it's nothing but they lost out on lessons. Sad.
You might think we have learned to stay out of trouble after last year and this Macs thingy. But hey. We don't learn. I'm including 'we' although I didn't do anything because I'll explain the reason later on.
So on Wednesday was Chem Practical. After a nice suan by Ms. Jazilah (one day only ah? - to the suspension), we just did our practical. As always, people played around. But NO ONE knew it would reach this stage.
This classmate, let's call him A. Oh by the way, we were doing experiments to test for gases, so concentrated Hydrochloric Acid was involved. Anyway, A stole a sample of concentrated HCl and concentrated H2SO4.
Now, I didn't know that until after recess when A took the acids out. He wanted to mix them together. Well, according to my lousy Chem knowledge, when two acids are mixed together, nothing's supposed to happen; as in no reaction, no product whatever.
But still, I told A, "You're not wearing goggles. You're not wearing gloves. If anything happens, it's none of our business."
Maybe it's cos of that last line, he just went ahead and did it.
There was effervescence and smoke. Everyone freaked out and scampered around like mice. Then I don't know what happened after that.
So, something happened (once again, I know what happened but I shan't disclose it here). And DK knows about it. This morning, there was a loud commotion and Ms. Jen Goh was shouting at A.
She doesn't sound angry, she doesn't sound aggressive.
She sounded sad, she sounded like she was guilty. Like she was guilty for not teaching A anything? I don't know.
Mr. Chew LH witnessed everything cos it's his lesson anyway.
So A said we saw him taking the acids, and we got sort-of-scolded by Ms. Jen Goh.
But we didn't. A later said that we saw him take it out of his bag in class.
We still scolded cos we 'lacked moral courage to stand up for what is right'. I can't disagree.
I said that thing to A when he took the acids out. But he didn't listen to me and stop. It reflects like how my juniors and peers in my section don't listen to me too. I am really... useless.
So anyway, teacher after teacher came to our class and talked about this thing.
We later went as a class to DK's office after recess.
History repeated itself and we were barred from our class before school starts, and we were to report to him before and after recess.
Needless to say, it was pathetic.
It was like we're some animals and we couldn't stop barking/meowing/making noises and shitting everywhere that the humans need to whack us to make us stfu. How unfortunately.
Am I filled with too much emotion? My eyes pricked with a single drop of tear when Mr. Chew LH was speaking to us after Ms. Jen Goh left the class.
A was wrong. But you see, A couldn't have done what he did if it wasn't for our support.
Yes, we supported him. Indirectly.
I didn't tell him, "A, go for it! Mix the acids" or "A, quick quick go order Macs now!!!" (yes he was involved in both cases)... but I didn't slap him. I didn't report him. I only said that pathetic line (please refer to above to read what).
We supported A, indirectly.
Sometimes, I feel our class is misunderstood.
Take people like Zen for instance. He's not a complete bastard who wants to kill people. He's really not. He's just... mildly retarded, perhaps. Whatever it is, I know that he isn't a bad person.
Neither is anyone from my class, regardless of how much I hate anyone of them.
A, for example, has improved a lot this year. He sits just behind me and I know it. Even Ms. Png was impressed with his attitude towards studies... Ms. Tan LH too! So... I think he just did what he did, because he didn't know (I really don't think he would think all the way to skin allergies and acid vapor). Young and reckless, I would say. God I sound like I'm 50.
But perhaps the thing I was most disturbed about is that A didn't take into consideration of Ms. Jazilah.
She canceled our Chem remedial today. Maybe she has given up on us. You could see her face. It was full of morose. It was full of guilt. It was full of disappointment. And I heard that she cried. She was implicated because of us. She's like a farmer who needs to look after 32 chickens who can't take of them ourselves. Obviously, we can't expect to do it perfectly but still she was scolded by the superiors (I think). I just feel so... guilty towards her.
Another thing I'm sad is that A didn't think of us. We can't have lab anymore now, because of what he did. I would say it's forgive-able to not think of skin allergies and acid vapor but to not think of the class? Too much.
All in all... I don't think my class is incorrigible. Misunderstood, perhaps. Fallen down along this road, perhaps.
I'm not leaving them alone. Though I don't know what I can do now but still...
So, to express my thoughts even better, a song. This time to the class, 4I.
Long, long ago, in the far-off
past, this world was born.
In the ever-repeating history,
we have inherited life.
But from here, the only way
I can tell you this is by
singing this song.
Remember, just one more time
the form this world should have.
And please, don't forget,
please, please don't forget.
Surely no one was hoping for
any of those terrible things.
Hold the flowers to your heart,
and pray that they may some day bloom.
From here, the only way
I can tell you this is by
singing this song;
I'll be happy if you'd lend me
your ear, even just for a little bit.
Remember, just one more time
how we were born, crying, into this world.
Your dreams and hopes for tomorrow
are all in this world.
From here, the only way
I can tell you this is by
singing this song;
I'll be happy if you'd lend me
your ear, even just for a little bit.
Remember, just one more time
the form this world should have.
And please, don't forget,
please, please don't forget.
- 'A Song is born', Ayumi Hamasaki
Listened to music @ 8:39 PM
