♥ Wednesday, January 30, 2008
The Sec3 exco was announced today. It's a good thing to see that you, as an old senior can finally like take a step back... I think it doesn't really matter if you're in the exco or whatever... just seeing the juniors leading the band... it's sort of a happy thing. =)
BUT. We can NEVER have the best of both worlds. While (perhaps) the new exco rejoices and wonders about their new posts,...
And the worst thing is, I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND HOW IT FELT. Cos I'm not in the exco either.
I still remember that day, I was so emo and sarcastic! But now, I just seemed emotionless to this whole exco thing... like it doesn't bother me anymore. Perhaps, at this point of time, I've truly fallen in love with band as a CCA, and band as an institute of education and music.
For that person... I hope you wouldn't feel so pessimistic about band. Yes, band gives us a lot of CCA points, but to say that you're staying only for that... I don't believe you.
Yes, I'm assuming now. I don't believe you.
I don't believe that you'd stay in band for the sole reason of CCA points... if anything, I believe that you stayed for everything EXCEPT for CCA points.
Are you saying that you don't care about those friends whom you have made (Yours truly excluded)? Are you saying that they are nothing to you? Are you saying that...?
You see? I refuse to believe that you are such a selfish person.
Please understand that this is not the End of the World. If anything, I'd like to see that I'd be by your side for always... though it doesn't matter to you...
Really, I'd be your side.
Although I wish so much now to initiate a conversation with you... to just let you speak about what you're feeling... you wouldn't want too anyway. Because it's me. I feel so... useless seeing myself being useless.
I don't wish to say this, but I'm afraid that I've fallen in love with THAT PERSON. It's not true, is it? It just can't be... it just can't be...
Just for you... this song.
Your heart began to be scorched
And there was a smell of it
It was the end of your dream
And the beginning of everything
What you adored looked beautiful to you
It became even brighter because you couldn't reach it
The broken pieces of your dream
Pierce my heart
Leaving a pain
That I should never forget
If my life is transient like a flower
I'll be in full bloom by your side
And after watching your smile
I'll scatter my petals alone, quietly
How was the scenery you saw
When you were pushed into an abyss of despair?
Your naked heart is wandering
Having nowhere to go
And it is setting thorns around
For fear of being touched
If I could flutter like a bird
I would fly over to you
And offer my wing
To your wounded back
If my life is transient like a flower
I'll be in full bloom by your side
And after watching your smile
I'll scatter my petals alone, quietly
If I could flutter like a bird
I would fly over to you
And offer my wing
To your wounded back
If I could flow the wind
I would flow beside you
If I could shine like a moon
I would keep shining on you
I'll be anything
If it can stop you from being seized from fear...
- 'Moments', Ayumi Hamasaki
Don't give up! =D
Listened to music @ 10:34 PM
