♥ Monday, December 31, 2007
Hi. Today is the 31st December 2007 and the last day that I will use the com for next year, except for CNY and the holidays.
2007 has been a... how should I say it. For one, I know I didn't like 2007 but there's something about it that makes me smile. It's bittersweet.
I remember those months of depression. Basically it's February, March, April, late June, August (save the 1st day), September, October and early November. Just because of stupid things I say/do... I was filled with regret and morose. And I remembered I will just really display myself as an idiot... just because I'm depressed. But I suppose I've learned a lot of things from this incident itself.
Without anyone in this world, the sun will still rise (from the East), the earth will still revolve... people will still have sex, nothing will really stop. Even now, the Pakistan president got killed... but the world isn't stopping just because she died. Indeed, no one in this world is indispensable. Therefore, we really should make full use of our presence... and rub off cheerfulness and bliss to others as well.
Another thing I've learned is that everyone in this world is after all, human. A human can't have just ONE friend forever and ever... In fact, the thought of possessing a fellow friend should abolished for it's selfish and retarded. Thinking about making someone yours and only yours and thus getting jealous over insignificant things... it's pointless. I've learned that. My friend(s) are humans and because of that, they have their own circle of friends as well. We are not God. We can't make everyone like us (and even God has His own clan of non-supporters)... so we really cannot expect our friends' friends to like us, because things are just like that. So the next time when I need to stop talking because you know another friend of my friend is there and all... I will know what to do. (Note to self: don't get jealous anymore!)
Lastly, I think I've grasped the meaning of love... or at least how it's perceived as the good way. I think... When you are in love with someone, and when you understand that person you love will never love you... and you really understand that and thus not get jealous when he's close to other people... he's a human!
So with 2007 ending on a clash chord of mixed feelings... I really hope that 2008 will be better. Though there are things I still cherish like alumni practices, Realm, Band Camp and TPJC's concert (I honestly still can't spell that R word!)... and SYF! I wish that only they will stay in my memory as 2007.
Now, for 2008. I'll just be focusing on studies and band, after all it's my O Level year. I hope I'll do well... it will suck if I did badly when I study... Ha.
New year resolution is to well.
1) Study consistently.
By studying every day... I hope that I'll absorb and learn more. This should help, hopefully.
2) Lose the weight.
Yes, I need to shed off on Su Qi. I'm serious about this okay!!!
3) Improve in my playing.
Honestly I have no comments about my playing and I'm praying that I'll pass the audition on the 16th Jan but I don't hold hopes on passing and playing in the April concert as a senior band (in which I'll not go for alumni if I fail as well...).
That's about all for 2008. I hope 2008 will be a good year for everyone on this earth!!! Channel U, please give me more Korean shows! Haha.
Okay that's all for now, I might edit and add on as the day goes by.
Happy New Year.!.
Listened to music @ 1:26 AM
