♥ Sunday, December 09, 2007
La La La...
I hear a gentle voice from somewhere
Which might have always been heard
The warmth found just near me
I was forgiven by forgiving many things
Including my childhood so long ago
I was healed, though I intended to heal
I've just noticed, in the way
That I was saved by love
Though I tried to keep love away
You come down quietly from somewhere
And always tell me
Of the happiness just near me
Supporting and being supported
I draw close to you little by little
Protecting and being protected
I get convinced
That I was saved by love
Though I tried to keep love away
If you have a pain hard to get over
Shall we share it and walk on?
Gathering pleasure too big for each of us
Shall we share them and walk on?
I sing this song only to you now
I sing this song only to you now
You are my special treasure
You are my special treasure
La La La...
No rain, can't get the rainbow
No rain, can't get the rainbow
RAINBOW - Hamasaki Ayumi
Today (or rather yesterday), horrible memories of my childhood resurfaced in my mind; it was a while ago such a thing happened.
All this while, I've regarded my low self-confidence and low self-esteem to my family; the very people whom have crushed my childhood.
But in the end, is it just myself?
There are so many instances when I really detest myself, when I become paranoid, when I am selfish, when I am reckless, when I am inconsiderate, when I am insensitive.
Is there really a need to?
I mean life, is but a journey where we make mistakes and learn from them. Perhaps some people might take a while to learn, and some take much faster to, but at the end of the day, we'll end it on a nice note, right?
I decided to search Ayu's RAINBOW on veoh.com to watch the video for it. What it portrays, is what I should do. Finding myself, and learning to forgive myself. And my family too. I know it's going to be hard doing all these, but I'll try, for the sake of myself.
Such a "deep" post yet with such short words... maybe some random guy reading this blog now might think "Attention-seeker." But no one really reads my blog anyway, so... who cares?
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Listened to music @ 12:45 AM
