♥ Thursday, September 06, 2007
150th Anniversary!
Anyway, on the previous post when I said that there were 3 songs that I'd like to post... I've decided against it, for I have one song that I have in mind now to post now. It is in Chinese, so I'll post that and personally translate it as well.
But before I do that, here is a quote.
"The Most Valuable Thing In This World"
What is it for me? I know I can answer right away, that it is a person. But how much do I mean it?
Sometimes, when I think back on how I behave towards other people, I really wonder, why am I showing them a feeling which I am obviously not feeling at all? I've always mentioned that it was because I'm afraid I'll be labeled as acting emo, but perhaps it was just me. Perhaps I should just try to show my true emotions next time.
The most valuable thing in this world... as much as I am telling myself an answer, I know what it really is. It's just my dogmatic, pathetic little opinions that piss people off and cause my own death. Many a time, I only see things in my own pathetic perception, without using other people's perceptions. I know, I suck.
Sometimes, when you take things for granted, you'll realize that when it's gone, it really wasn't worth it, to take it for granted.
Perhaps if I hadn't said XXX, if I hadn't said YYY... do you know how many times I'm telling that to myself before I sleep? I know how BIG a difference it'd make if I actually shut my mouth up for one day and keep my dogmatic, pathetic little opinions to myself.
Screw it. I HATE MYSELF NOW.
I hate myself for taking the best things that have happened around me for granted. I hate myself for thinking that someone actually should rightfully spend 24/7 with me and ONLY ME. How freaking selfish? Don't I actually know that every human on this earth has his OWN life, his OWN friends, his OWN world? I'm so selfish for not thinking so.
I hate myself for expressing my dogmatic, pathetic little opinions that place no value except for pissing people off. I hate myself for being an idiot and hurting everyone around me. I hate myself for thinking that I am the best when I am nothing more than nothing. I hate myself for thinking that I am perfect, when no one is perfect. I hate myself for being dogmatic and dominant.
Oh yeah just when I am express my utmost hatred to myself, some screwed up virus keeps getting sent to my MSN contacts. And who got the virus? MY BROTHER. I'm pissed and full of hatred towards myself that I shan't bother about him.
I hate myself for being a total bastard, by being insensitive to everything around me.
Most of all, I hate myself because I failed to appreciate him.
I HATE MYSELF, WITH A PASSION.
Am I suffering? Am I upset? I don't know, and I don't wish to, for it doesn't matter. All I know how to do now is to live every day, without anything in view.
I'm not as strong as you think I am; I'm only good at using smiles to fake through everything. Isn't it so?
| 呼吸着一种孤独的味道
心跳在你沉默以后慢慢的被淡忘掉
我笑了笑反正你看不到
我要的幸福
遗落在你怀抱
当爱失了焦
那些最初的美好
早被你搁在一角
街上拥挤人潮
走着看着都是摧眠符号
记忆停不了
穿过读你的心跳
穿过想你的味道
我只想不被打扰
假装多好我只要
只想要再拥有一秒
去相信你的拥抱
一直会让我依靠
继续等待
还心甘情愿的不想逃
当爱失了焦
那些最初的美好
早被你搁在一角
街上拥挤人潮
走着看着都是摧眠符号
记忆停不了
穿过读你的心跳
穿过想你的味道
我只想不被打扰
假装多好我只要
只想要再拥有一秒
去相信你的拥抱
一直会让我依靠
继续等待
心甘情愿不想逃
假装多好依然是
依然是暧昧的tone调
一个人无理取闹
两人世界的煎熬
我被自己困在自己设下的圈套
像是驼鸟
相信时间是唯一解药
视而不见
傻到了无可救药
其实早明了
你的爱已随风飘
想要找
再也找不到
假装多好我只要
只想要再拥有一秒
去相信你的拥抱
还心甘情愿的不想逃
假装多好依然是
依然是暧昧的tone调
一个人无理取闹
两人世界的煎熬
我被自己困在自己设下的圈套
假装自己
已解开冰冷的手铐 |
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Breathing in a kind of loneliness
My heartbeat is forgotten slowly after your silence
I laughed a little; You can't see it anyway
The happiness I want
Is already in your embrace
When love lost its focus
The initial loving memories
Had already been kicked aside by you
The street is crowded with people
It's all causes of hypnotism
The memories can't stop flowing
They passed through your heartbeat
They passed through the taste of missing you
I just don't want to be interrupted
How nice would it be to pretend
I just want and only want one more second
To believe that your embrace
Will always be somewhere I can lean on
Continuing to wait
To the extent of staying willingly
When love lost its focus
The initial loving memories
Had already been kicked aside by you
The street is crowded with people
It's all causes of hypnotism
The memories can't stop flowing
They passed through your heartbeat
They passed through the taste of missing you
I just don't want to be interrupted
How nice would it be to pretend
I just want and only want one more second
To believe that your embrace
Will always be somewhere I can lean on
Continuing to wait
To the extent of staying willingly
How nice would it be to pretend
It still is, it still is
The tone of ambiguity
Being unreasonable alone
The tortures of the worlds of two people
I've been trapped in the trap that I've set up
Like an ostrich
Believing that time is the only antidote
Out of sight, out of mind
Foolish till there's no way out
Actually I've long understood
That your love had flew with the wind
Wanting to find
Yet never to find
How nice would it be to pretend
I just want and only want one more second
To believe that your embrace
Will always be somewhere I can lean on
Continuing to wait
To the extent of staying willingly
How nice would it be to pretend
It still is, it still is
The tone of ambiguity
Being unreasonable alone
The tortures of the worlds of two people
I've been trapped in the trap that I've set up
I pretend that I've already been released from my cold handcuffs...
假装 --- 蔡依林
Listened to music @ 10:37 PM
