♥ Wednesday, August 01, 2007
In life, we often put too much notice on the little things that make our lives miserable and overlook the bigger picture --- our own perception.
Recently I've chosen to poison my own life with paranoid thoughts and treating myself like I'm some low-class person. Thinking about non-existent things and emotions that get me all worked up, jealous, depressed... is it worth it? I realized only now that I've wasted too much time on such things.
I shall agree; I was jealous; I centralized my life around you; I tried too hard... was, I repeat, was. Which means it won't happen again. I will only try too hard on one thing, that is breaking the musical potential I have.
While looking for someone, I overlooked myself; that I am just as special too.
Therefore, it's good-bye assumptions and foolishness and hello good life!
Anyway, I shall be satisfied by the little things in life, even if they seem like nothing COMPARED to others. The key word? Compare. I compared too much in the past; which is why I get jealous so often and so intensively.
So, even if it's just that little something; I'll cherish it.
And I just want to quote a few lines from Madonna's X-Static Process. And no offense to fellow Christians/Catholics.
Jesus Christ will you look at me?
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Don't really know (someone say) if I should give a damn when you're around
I don't know who I am
I always wished that I could find someone as beautiful as you
But in the process I forgot that I was special too
I always wished that I could find someone as talented as you
But in the process I forgot
That I was just as good as you
Listened to music @ 11:19 PM
