♥ Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Sigh what was a progress report with just Maths as fail turns out to be more fails. At least I've planned out what I'll be doing for the next 4 weeks that I have before SA2.
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Anyway, I don't understand why when I feel extremely happy over something, something bad, sometimes so bad that it totally overshadows the happy thing, must happen the next day. When I can actually have a few consecutive days of happiness?
Physics lessons was just omg today, I usually don't mind people touching me but screw off if you are going to cut my hair.
Zen... cut my hair with a pair of scissors. MY HAIR.
That wasn't the worst thing. Someone else, let's just call him X, did it too. Or at least attempted to. I was just totally shocked. Like what the hell? I honestly thought that he treated me as a friend and not some acquaintance or something. I mean he treated me really nice and all that. For once, I thought, someone else whom I would really like a lot.
And then? I don't know if it's a change, or he was just pretending all along but I felt betrayed.
Betrayed that he acted like a friend to me but in the end he's all but a jerk.
Betrayed that he decided to screw up my life like that. And many more.
BUT, those are thoughts in the morning. Almost 12 hours have passed and my perception have changed again.
Perhaps it's fine that X decided to reveal his true colors now. At least I won't feel so hurt when things have gone too deep.
I mean, it's his loss for doing this to me. Someone will betray him one day too, I believe.
At least, there are still other people who truly cared for me. Like Peter and Chang Jun, when I told them what happened. And they both said the same thing, which pretty much struck me deep.
"You really think that X was your friend? You can't see through his pretense?" (I'm paraphrasing)
I told them that I can't see through X's pretense. I was too naive. Bad, bad, bad.
Whatever it is, X, I know who you really are now. Even though it was kind of a taboo to actually want to be your friend, but at least I tried. If you thought about it, I doubt I had sex with you or something that made you decide to cut my hair with a pair of scissors. Because I know my friends won't do such a thing to me. I'm not petty, by the way.
Buh-bye forever, X!
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Anyway, I mentioned that I have planned what to do for these 4 weeks I have left till my SA2. Here is the plan.
First week --- Complete all my maths homework for term 3 and thus revising term 3 maths, thank you Mr. Tan, for being so kind as to give me 2 marks for the homework even though some of them were freaking overdue.
Second week --- Science week! Thermal physics must be cleared ASAP, Chem really should be done ASAP as well
Third week --- HUMANS!
Fourth week --- Languages, especially EL.
Yay.
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