♥ Monday, July 30, 2007
29th July, 2007 was the much anticipated Marist Bands concert, realMusic.
I woke up at 5 30 and God, time flew past really fast and before I knew it, I'm blogging, on the day after the concert.
Anyway, did the usual stuff during concerts; moving instrument, etc. Everything went fine for me... until the concert started.
I started having this weird fuzzy tone which sucks. Obviously I wasn't happy at it and I immediately thought I'll screw the solo in In Times of Triumph.
Well, thank God I didn't.
I heard from people that the solo sounded quite nice =p With this, I can go on to do greater stuff. Yeah.
I surprised myself by not shedding a single tear on the concert. I predicted that I'll break down like crazy like last year but I didn't. Whether that signifies anything about what I feel about the Sec4s is up to everyone's opinions. I know the answer to that myself very well.
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I'm numb to a life without you. I don't know why but it's been 14 days since we talked, save yesterday, so that'll be 13 days. Somehow, it doesn't hurt as much as it did on day 1. Am I numb to pain already? Perhaps I've already accustomed myself to a life without you. Whatever it is, I don't even know it myself; maybe I'll blurt out my inner-most feelings unconsciously, when I get wasted or something.
14 days ago, I felt like a part of Me was gone. 14 days later, I've regenerated that lost part of Me. It's surprising how quickly I adapt to this because I know I adapt very slowly and badly.
Anyway, my parents make me laugh sometimes. Coming home at almost 12 yesterday night, I told my mum that I played in a concert.
Her reply was, "You can play for a concert meh?" Laugh my ass off.
I understand it finally; I'll withdraw. The image of you and him together is really beautiful. Perhaps that's why I felt numb now. Maybe letting go is the real possession.
I only what I want to see, how can life be what I want it to be? I am really frozen now... I need to warm up!
Listened to music @ 9:01 PM
