♥ Monday, July 09, 2007
Hi.
I'm in love with the taste of love! It's actually a song but I really like it.
Anyway, notice how I'm actually using purple instead of pink? Yeah, this is going to be a very happy post.
Life is a journey. I'm standing in a spot, wondering where to move on to next. I was tied down by love, hatred, wrath and laziness.
I am going to move on. I know I'll falter, I know I'll fall but I know my friends (and myself) will always be by my side. With that knowledge, I'm able to move on without worries.
For those who watch the 9pm on Channel 8, you may have noticed the lyrics of the opening. They are inspirational (at least to me) and I'd like to quote some of them, with my translation. Haha.
Perfection is a goal but who can really achieve it? In this world, who's to say who's better than whom? Self-confidence is the key in the end; only you can make yourself smile!
Yeah. I can't depend on my friends 24/7 to be happy because they might have their down days as well. I'd be selfish if I expect them to make me happy even at those circumstances, wouldn't I?
Therefore, I should be more independent and make myself smile!
Anyway, I'd like to talk about self-confidence in this post.
For a long long time, I've always been convinced that I am well not good at anything, thus resulting a low self-esteem and low self-confidence.
People have talked to me and tried to boost my self-confidence up but I was still convinced that I... suck.
I watch inspirational TV shows, listen to inspirational songs and read inspirational books but I was like still so defeatist.
Then the recent events took a toll on me.
For those who watch Jia You! Jin Shun!, in today's episode, Jin Shun was undergoing a test about dying hair. A few episodes back, she was practising like mad. Today, she was one of the 2 who passed the test.
My point is, she practised very hard. And she got the desired results, a pass in her test. Many a time I give myself excuses so that I don't have to practise but in the end, I'm just killing myself.
I guess I know what that means. I should be practising more in my trumpet! If I have a goal, it's not going to be done if I just have a goal. For those who actually googled for trumpet (like me), you'll come across a website about trumpet playing. Anyway, there's a section called Goals. Upon skimming through the page, I came across this equation.
Goals = Wishes + Work
I have a goal. (Please don't laugh) I am going to work in the SSO, as a musician.
My wish would be copying the sentence above and changing am going to want.
Well that was so easy wasn't it? I just stated my goal and wish. But the work part is not that going to be that easy. Therefore, I'll strive my best and accomplish my goal. By the way, that is my ultimate goal for now. Of course there are other goals that must be accomplished before that one. I'm going to apply the same theory in those goals.
Someday, I will be a musician. Watch me.
Anyway, just something to add on to self-confidence, I'd like to highlight a Pokemon from the new Pokemon games.
People, this is Cherrim. No worries, they're both the same Pokemon.
Anyway, the purple, closed Cherrim is the 'Normal' Cherrim. Meaning, this is what Cherrim looks like usually. (in the games, it's totally different in the anime)
Now, if you use the Sunny Day move, Cherrim will transform into her 'Sunny' mode. The pink one, where she's all opened up and smiling. With this mode, she gets powered up as well.
Well, you must be wondering how does a Cherrim have anything to do with self-confidence?
Do you want to be the Cherrim who's closed up, afraid to face the world, or the Cherrim who's opened up, smiling with pure bliss? It really boils down to self-confidence, doesn't it?
I will be the Pink Cherrim, all the time. Ready to face the world with the new strength that I have given myself.
Perhaps by now, most people would think that I did all these all by myself. But my motivation and strength doesn't come from myself.
To those who tried to make me feel more confident about myself, your words were never forgotten, neither were they of zero value. To be honest, it's thinking of you and how you have made a name for yourself that made me realize the importance of self-confidence.
I just want to say, even if I'm that bloody insignificant in your life, you play a major role in my life. Thank you.
Be strong!
Listened to music @ 11:15 PM
