♥ Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Hello.
If you've noticed, the pink I'm using now is much lighter, which means I'm feeling very upset now.
Firstly, interesting things in my family all the time ya.
Brother from hell, biased parents... haha.
Well, my brother sucks as usual and his prescene at home only makes things worse... considering that I can't practise my instrument at all with him around which is what I want to do so much.
My parents? Biased as always. My mother came back just now and scolded me cos I didn't open the window. Then she dragged in my studies and started raising her voice at me like I just murdered someone.
I mean, why does she always shout at me? She doesn't do that to my siblings so...? If she's having a bad day at her shop or something, then why must I be the one who she vents her fustrations on?
And something else that I can't, won't, and don't want to post/talk about lest controversy starts up.
All in all, I just feel wretched now. Perhaps all I really needed is my family to love and support me, especially in band. They don't understand, and it isn't anyone's fault.
Perhaps, if I was a little more knowledgeble, or somewhat a person whom can have secrets thrown on me, I wouldn't be saying Oh all the time. I want to help, seriously. And then it'll get translated into trying too hard? Where is the limit?
I'm at my wits end. I don't know what to do now, at all. Perhaps I'm feeling outright miserable and pent up inside. Those who listened to me have used another method so that I won't allow myself to sink into my misery. I'm hoping it helps?
I'm exhuasted and just emotionally exhausted.
Listened to music @ 10:55 PM
