♥ Sunday, March 25, 2007
All right. Tell me if this actually seems logical.
I was doing my Comprehension and I decided to buy dinner. My brother came back (WHAT THE FUCK!) just when I wanted to leave. Yes, my mood went from =) to =(.
So I left my Compre stuff on the sofa and just left. When I returned, guess what? THEY WERE TORN. Like bloody hell. And you know what? He (It) tore my homework because he (it) couldn't find the remote control for the TV. Like what the fuck? Does it even seem logical? Like it's my homework, what the fuck does it have to do with not being able to find a remote control?
To make things worse, he (it) actually said "I don't care, whatever happens, too bad. Who told you to put your homework on the sofa? I don't care, the remote control MUST be on my sofa when I come back, if not you'll die."
Yay. What the fuck. He slapped me too, F.Y.I.
Now tell me, why is life always so messed up? I haven't been getting anything better since that day and such things are always getting thrown at me. Are all these obstacles a sign? That I should give up? I am really tired now. I don't really feel like fighting on anymore.
And who will actually listen to me for all these, who will be by my side, who will lend me his shoulder to cry on? Who... I know who he is, but it's all in the past. I really, really want to give up now. Just give up on everything.
What else can I do but to keep everything to myself. No one bothers to listen anyways.
I feel that my smile can't hide these scars in my heart any longer. Why am I still alive? For whom do i continue walking for? I don't know...
My birthday's this friday but somehow I have a bad feeling about it. Everything is falling apart and that person who used to heal me... please stop thinking about him.
I don't know what to tell Miss Tan tomorrow. Hopefully she will believe this absurd story. If she does not, like hey I don't mind her calling my Mum.
All I want now... is for my brother to fuck off to hell.
Listened to music @ 8:24 PM
