♥ Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Ok, I'm gonna rant.
Firstly, what is it with my family? I mean, it's totally screwed up like everything. My brother is the worst shit to ever exist on the surface on this earth, ever. HE SUCKS!!! Asking obvious questions and telling me to do stuff that have no concern to me whatsoever, like what the hell? And like, I mean yeah he "banned" me from all sorts of sound coming from my computer, like whatever, fine I use earphones, but did he just have to come up all the time and irritate me? I mean he's like what, 19? And showing such immaturity, oh God.
Life sucks as well. All these things going through, I mean it really is horrible and not fun at all. My mind is confused. Oh well, what to do. Obstacles are just for us to step on to get up.
Band hasn't been going well for me either. I am a shit player who really can't play. I disgust the ears of those who heard me. I wasted my seniors' time, I wasted Mr Chiang's time. I don't even know what I'm doing in band. I'm stagnant if not deproving. I practice and I try hard, but the results just aren't coming at all and it's killing me. I'm starting to feel that all this enthusiasm I had are all just a facade, I feel fake and like a hypocrite. This sucks so bad.
Studies are like neutral for now. I have confidence for my humans but my maths and science are just... forget it. I got a 12.5/40 for my E-Maths Common Test. It's bloody E-Maths, and my maximum marks cap for A-Maths is 3. 3/40, not 3/5. Don't get it twisted. I suck in maths.
And that precious JEWEL... oh well whatever.
All I know is I'm breaking inside and it really is a wrong thing to let people see my vulnerability.
Listened to music @ 9:36 PM
