♥ Sunday, January 28, 2007
I'm looking up at the stained sky
so my tears don't well up and fall.
Why can't people live
as they wish
I don't want a weak heart that can't cry
or the strength not to cry.
I'll search for a shooting
star to cast my wishes on, but
dawn is coming too soon
and I won't be able to find one.
There's never a day that I have
to remember you because
I never for a moment forgot you.
Whenever I'm sad I have
a habit of saying I'm ok.
After something stopped
that day, no matter
how much I pray,
I can't see a single star.
I want to see you, I want to see you.
Your smiling face in my memory is
just too kind.
HANABI - Ayumi Hamasaki
This feeling... is so sad, and sounds like a cry, and yet I still feel so much for it, I almost had that feeling, but for what?
On whose account do I walk?
Sometimes I feel inferior, for being a burden to you, that other people are making you feel so happy and high, while I'm the only one who makes you fed up...
Oh well.
The audition for SYF has been shifted from 3rd March to 3rd Februrary!!! Oh my God! It has been a shock but, since things have come to this stage, I'm all ready for it, going to pratice everyday till Saturday to perfectize my parts!
Oh yes, self-confidence is important in such aspects.
... I don't understand why I'm trying so hard to post something happy, when my heart is all down and sad...
Oh well.
Let's end this off
The summer has come again and again since then
But why am I looking back upon the past again
Tracing the footprints?
I remember everything even now
Your voice calling my name, your casual habits
I want to forget, and I don't want to forget
Did I choose the right way?
But I keenly understand there is no answer
Whomever I may ask it to
Please tell me some day that you are happy
And smile
I gently lock the memories away
Leaving them to be beautiful
This feeling, this feeling, go up into the sky
And be dispersed beautifully like a firework
~HANABI episode II~ Ayumi Hamasaki
Listened to music @ 8:30 PM
