♥ Monday, November 06, 2006
"The fastest way to heaven is to know your way to hell first."
Lu's mum said that to Xiao Lin.
It's really meaningful. So is this the hell I'm going through now, so that I'll be in heaven?
Anyway, Xiao Lin said this to Xin... and I loved it.
"Do you know who Romeo's first love is? It isn't Juliet, but Rosaline. He was secretly in love with Rosaline, and he was in an agony because of that. Then he saw Juliet in a party, and it was love at first sight. Rosaline was forgotten. Everybody knows Romeo and Juliet, but who knows Rosaline? Some don't even know who she is. She is just like a supporting role."
Well she said that cos she felt excatly like Rosaline. And I feel the same way as Xiao Lin now. It's like I always feel inferior because I don't steal the limelight. I always ask myself, "Am I cute/hot/sexy enough?" If the answer is yes, then why isn't attention mine? I see people getting so much attention, everybody just looks at them all the time, because they are like the lead role. And it's such a horrible feeling to know that the one you love is so happy because of someone else, and not you. It's so horrible, it just makes you feel empty inside, you're better of dead. I don't want to be a supporting role, but I won't go all out to steal the limelight. That includes, saying stupid stuff so people could laugh, speaking in a loud volume so that people can hear your cold jokes and laugh, doing stuff like acting fierce, etc to make people go "Whoo!" I won't, cos if I do, it would be such a shame.
I HAVE PRIDE.
I won't be such a slut. I won't be an attention seeker. I want people to like me for who I am. Just like what Christopher Boone said, "I don't want my name to mean Jesus Christ, I don't want my name to mean anything, I want my name to mean me."
Exactly. I want to be me. I want to get attention because I'm a nice person and everyone talks to me. Not because I'm doing some extra stuff. That's so gross.
So, if I see people getting the limelight because they're being extra and I'm there, the supporting role, I would take deep breath, and I would tell myself,
"AT LEAST I'M BEING ME."
Yes, I value that alot, the value of being me.
People do not know this but, in a novel/movie/drama, if there's no supporting role, there's no plot.
Go figure.
Listened to music @ 11:22 PM
