♥ Thursday, October 26, 2006
Hey.
It's the last day of school today. We had a mass. Surprisingly, it's a really short one so I didn't get sick of it. (cos of my poor ass.)
But, I still love masses. Cos in every mass, there's this erm ceremony where the Catholics go up to the priest and have a piece of bread, which was believed to be the body of Jesus Christ. And it's so religious and touching and full of love. And if it was last year, perhaps I wouldn't give a damn. But, right now, perhaps after everything that happened this year, I've learnt to appreciate more. Cos you never know when your best friend could just be your enemy the next day. So basically, that whole ceremony, seeing Mrs Audrey Chong singing the song and by the way the song sounded nice, like... Backstreet Boys? I don't know I'm not Catholic how would I know.
Anyway, it's really nice. Maybe I should be a Catholic. Haha, nah I'll be a disgrace.
Anyway, last day of school, things really seemed to be so distant and so surreal...
And to sum it all in MSHS for 2006...
It's funny, I spent my whole life, wanting to be talked about. I did it, just about everything to see my name in lights. It's funny, how everybody mentions my name, but they're never really nice.
But was it all worth it?
IT ISN'T.
I regretted everything that I did in 2006.
And I remembered, when the people who hate me liked me for who I WAS. And they hate me now, for who I AM.
I've been a bitch and retalliating with everything thrown to me. Please, I tell myself. STOP FIGHTING.
In my mind, they are so distant, in the shadows of my yesteryear...
And it's so out of line, to try and turn back time.
Why am I even here? I've caused so much hurt to everyone around me with what I thought would gain me fame, popularity, love, everything. And it isn't true in the end, I'm just a waste of the shadows, and who can come and save me, when those whom I love hate me so?
Like Romeo and Juliet, I'm destined to kill myself in the graveyard.
The future looks bleak.
And I'll still carry on, with the hope that God will pull me through when my pillow gets wet He will be there, He will be my voice within and I will trust the voice within.
Good-bye 2-I and hello... 3?
Listened to music @ 10:06 PM
