♥ Thursday, August 24, 2006
I hate my family.
Why?
Because.
They have no faith in me and they don't believe in me.
Long ago when I just started band, I hated it cos I thought I was forced in it.
Then I grew attached to it, and I loved it.
Then my enthusiasm got the better of me and I wanted masterclass lessons.
And when I told my parents, guess what they said?
"You have NO talent in this, what's the point of wasting our money?"
"Band is USELESS, concentrate on your studies."
Hello! They actually said I had NO talent! Like parents have no belief and faith in me! Christopher Boone's parents have faith in him even though he's got Asperger's Syndrome, why not my parents?
Gosh, my parents suck.
And like I told my mum I studied in the afternoon (which I really did) and like she didn't believe me and told me to go study and like she still wants me to buy dinner and do the laundry, like what the hell.
And like they totally have no trust, faith and belief in me. And I believe that love comes from these 3 sources and yet there isn't = my parents do not love me.
If being a parent has to toture the child until like that, I'd rather not be one.(but kids are so cute!)
They totally painted my world black, my parents who have no faith in me.
And I wrote a song in my mind, ok I shall not write repeat choruses cos I've got no time now.
They say love needs faith,
Cos with trust comes love.
But right here where I sleep,
Where is the love?
They say a home is a sancturay for a child,
Why thank you, my hell.
My broken family,
this song is for you,
did you ever have faith in me,
did you ever believe me?
You only wanted me to excel,
in what you want me to do,
Did you forget.
That this is my life?
So I live everyday,
with fear and suspicion,
cos I know I'm like an ex-convict,
never trusted and loved.
They say a home is a sancturay for a child,
Why thank you, my hell.
My broken family,
this song is for you,
did you ever have faith in me,
did you ever believe me?
You only wanted me to excel,
in what you want me to do,
Did you forget.
That this is my life?
Broken promises,
you put me down,
You told me to
Fuck it up
But I can't do
what you want me to
Cos
To hell with freedom of speech!
Just shut up, I don't need your comments.
My broken family,
this song is for you,
did you ever have faith in me,
did you ever believe me?
You only wanted me to excel,
in what you want me to do,
Did you forget.
That this is my life?
Did you forget.
That this is my life?
"It's My Life" lyrics by Jun Xiang
*thnaks to xiaohao for the line to hell with freedom of speech.*
Ok, and like first it was Mathilda now it's Nurul. Singapore is wasting its talent.
I swear to God, if Paul or Hady get kicked out, I'll change my citizenship to an American.
Jun Xiang confessed on Thursday, August 24th, 2006, 21 44 hours.
Listened to music @ 9:45 PM
