♥ Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby...
Yes, I feel so alone, crestfallen and vulnerable now, I was reading Alrick's blog today and I'm like "Omg, I didn't know I am such a bitch. Am I really that awful? Is it time for me to change?" Then it all became a confusion, is it all an illusion, everything I thought I was? I guess I'm not half the man I thought I would me... And I emphasize that particular paragraph,
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
I think everything is my fault now, oh my god... I made it rain, please forgive me cos I'm really sorry...
Sorry
Je suis desolée (Sorry in French)
Lo siento (Sorry in Spanish)
Ik ben droevig (I am sad in Dutch)
Sono spiacente (Sorry in Italian)
Perdóname (Forgive me in Spanish)
ごめんなさい (Sorry in Japanese)
Mujhe maaf karo (Sorry in Hindi)
Przepraszam (Sorry in Polish)
Forgive me
Do you accept my apology? I hope you do.
I still remember Primary school life when everything is peaceful and nice, bitches were rare, and I was not such an asshole. But now into Secondary school life... full of backstabs, tears, pain, and unhappiness... and I am a bitch!
I can't turn time back but maybe I can change the future? If it's bitter at the start then it's sweeter in the end, I suppose...
I don't want pity, I just want your forgiveness.
If you believe in this crap that I'm gonna write... then you believe in me...
All I wanted to do was to protect myself and be not vulnerable be jsut strong and immune to insults and backstabs, but they are drowning me now... And now, I feel, more vulnerable, more of a bitch, and just less a personality, less a soul...
Will you forgive me? I really hope you do.
What's a forbidden love? It's a love, erotic, family, friends, whatever, that can't be "performed" due to circumstances...
Will you change your perception about me and actually have a chat with at the next band practice? Cos I really hope you do.
And now, I end off this confession with another song lyrics...
I traded fame for love
Without a second thought
It all became a silly a game
Some things cannot be bought
I got exactly what I asked for
Wanted it so badly
Running, rushing back for more
I suffered fools so gladly
And now I find
I've changed my mind
The face of you
My substitute for love
Should I wait for you
My substitute for love
I traveled round the world
Looking for a home
I found myself in crowded rooms
Feeling so alone
I had so many lovers
Who settled for the thrill
Of basking in my spotlight
I never felt so happy
Famous faces, far off places
Trinkets I can buy
No handsome stranger, heady danger
Drug that I can try
No ferris wheel, no heart to steal
No laughter in the dark
No one-night stand, no far-off land
No fire that I can spark
The face of you
My substitute for love
Should I wait for you
My substitute for love
Now I find
I've changed my mind
This is my religion...
Note: The religion... I'm a freethinker currently, and I would love to be a follower of the Kabblah religion (Madonna's religion), but only when I'm older, when I'm emancipated.
And read the lyrics, I wanna change to be a better person, if being gay or fat is not why people hate me, then it's just me, myself, and I...
I hope you'll forgive me...
Jun Xiang confessed on Monday, June 12, 2006, 21 57 hours.
Listened to music @ 10:07 PM
